I just don't like smiling at strangers. Is that a crime?

Who will go against his heart if it is not forced by life?

This is a story that happened to me, and the story has to start from the summer vacation of freshman year.

At that time, in order to prove to my family that I had the ability to make money, I decided to take a part-time job, so I went to a hotel as a front desk. As a newcomer, I had to swallow my pride, and I did all the heavy work that others didn't want to do. At that time, because of my excellent performance, the manager was also very kind to me.

However, the only fly in the ointment is that I don't like to laugh. Their evaluation of me is that I smile sweetly at my acquaintances; But I don't like smiling at strangers. At that time, I was able to understand myself. I used to force myself to laugh and force myself to smile brilliantly at everyone, but it was always unsatisfactory. Later, I also put it down, so I went to school just after working for more than a month. This is an experience.

At that time, the conclusion was that because it was a service industry, smiling was particularly important, and I wanted to change the habit of not smiling.

Let's start with an experience. I used to work in a famous clothing store and also worked part-time. Because they are large clothing enterprises, they always train newcomers after they join the company. At that time, I especially cherished this hard-won job, because I stood out among many applicants, but the experience was good.

At that time, although I worked 10h++ every day, I still felt it was worthwhile, because the training there, from management to employees, performed their duties and cooperated well, which kept you motivated and gave you a scientific and regular schedule. It's a big enterprise, very systematic and perfect. Everyone who took me in charge was patient, but I didn't do well. I am also very patient with my guests and help them solve their problems. I don't feel tired at all. I worked for more than a month. Because I got off work too late at night, I was registered by my aunt, so I have to resign, which is very reluctant. There, it's real exercise.

Then I'll throw up again A third-rate clothing store C I went to this summer vacation can't compare with the place I went before, but the most unacceptable thing is that I was consumed all August. But why on earth?

At the end of July, I went to C clothing store for an interview, and after a day or two, I tried to work. Then I waited for 3-4 days before she gave me a reply, saying that I had worked hard. Then I told her that I could go to work all August, and the result, the result, the result. ...

On August 7, she gave me a day's work, which is about 7 hours. Then on August 8, I went to work again. As a result, I was told that the turnover of the store could not go up today, and I had to deduct part-time working hours to maintain it. After I rested for an hour, I was asked to rest for another hour. I really wanted to blow it up. Finally, I said directly, I'll just go back and get a result. Finally the manager said, let me go home.

Then the next week, the manager didn't even give me a day's work, and I collapsed. At that time, I thought I would resign, but people are often contradictory and still want the manager's approval. I think, then I will bear this tone first, and then a week has passed and the schedule has been arranged. But it's only about 5 minutes a day. I still remember that I was fucked by two people a few days ago. She actually canceled all the scheduled flights because she said she didn't come to work that day and asked me not to come to work. In this way, I calculated that I spent almost all my time in this store for a month, so I resolutely resigned.

I figured it out. Maybe for the owner of this store, she just regards me as a spare tire. When she is busy, in the past few minutes, when business is bad, all flights will be blocked and goods will be moved. It is possible for us part-time workers to run three times a day to those long-term workers. When business is good, there are many people, and when busy, they will be called there to spend their lives. Just the manager of a small shop, running everything in the shop with several girls. No big deal. It's not that I'm not good enough, but that I'm good. They didn't meet because I didn't like their shop from the beginning.

Yes, I have been in a bigger world. How can I succumb to this small cage?

Because of this summer vacation, I saw my heart clearly. Actually, I am myself, that's all. I don't need to change myself to please others. Since I don't like natural laughter, I'll do whatever I want. I am naturally defensive and can't live so heartlessly. I also realized that if people are doing things they don't like, they won't be happy. In such a big society and such a long life, you can't deliberately change yourself for money and life. Sometimes it's not worth thinking about Make money for the sake of money, so that people will become slaves of money completely and live their own lives.

Therefore, finding your true self is the first step to enter the society. You should know what you like to do, then find a job, then start a business, and so on, instead of blindly going to the postgraduate entrance examination, working, making money, and catering to this society and this family. In fact, in the end, only you are really wronged, and you know better than anyone.

In the last sentence, there is no shame in being a late bloomer.

I am also exploring on the road of finding myself. I'm not ashamed. I want to live my life, not contain my heart.

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Time determines who you will meet in this life, your heart determines who you want to appear in your life, and your behavior determines who can stay in the end.