Wang: Questioning the transformation of achievements.

20 17 On September 22nd, the national finals of the "Belt and Road" lecturer promotion competition came to an end. Yu, I, Bao Xiaoyan, Yu Xiong participated in the finals on behalf of Shanghai Division and competed with seven other Xinjiang players on the same stage. In the end, Yu Xiong won the championship and the best style award, I won the runner-up and the best display award, and I won the best outstanding award (which can also be understood as the best rookie award). Looking back on the whole contest, the biggest feeling is to question and change.

Please allow me to rewind the time to July 26th, 20th17th. The second preliminary round of STA "One Belt, One Road" commentator promotion competition was held in Hangzhou (China Eastern Airlines Yi Yun Hotel). When I drew the number 1, the whole person gasped, and the first thought in my mind was even whether I could swap appearances with other players. As you can imagine, no one wants to play first, and no one has an obligation to help you. I can only pat myself on the chest and grit my teeth. The main course of the competition is "Listen skillfully with' 3F'" in "Learn to be a Coach parent".

Although I had rehearsed several times in the venue the afternoon before, when I made eye contact with the judges and the audience, the tension swept through my whole body. In the audience questioning session, Teacher A Cai, who gave a lecture on "Non-violent Communication", raised a question. "Are you married? Do you have children? " "You are not married and have no children. Why talk about parent-child communication? " I expected such a problem. At that time, I felt that although I had no children, I had seven years' experience in English teaching and met thousands of children and parents. This "qualification" is enough to prove that I have the ability to teach parent-child communication well. As a result, Mr. Cai is still "persistent". In desperation, I replied: "I don't have children, but I have a younger brother who is 10 years old, and my older sister is like a mother." And I will use these coaching tools and methods in my daily life. "

In the judging session, Mr. Grain Rain still maintained a "vicious" style of comments, and I was judged to be "black and blue" from dressing, standing posture, course design, classroom demonstration to answering questions. Although I was standing on the stage with a smile on my face, my heart was already bleeding.

As a young lecturer, I have been trying to do better. Is there really nothing worth encouraging and affirming by our predecessors? In the preliminary round, the "big sister is like a mother" stalk was used as a teaching case by Mr. Gu again and again, as if a heavy hammer had hit me hard in my heart.

At 4: 25 pm, the ranking of the competition was finally announced, and I was lucky enough to win the sixth place in the Shanghai finals. For other contestants, Gu Kailai announced the good news in a blessing tone, but for me, Gu Kailai added, "It's nothing more than giving others another chance to ruin you."

When others congratulated me on being shortlisted, I was wondering whether to give others another chance to "kill me". I even asked my brother Wang Nuo to help me and told Mr. Gu that I had made a travel itinerary and was worried that I didn't have time to prepare for the battle. Teacher Gu said, "If you are afraid, just say it. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Losers are also a choice. Just don't regret it later ... ". Teacher Han left first because she had to catch the train. On the way, Mr. Han called me and helped me clear my mind and face up to my fears with counseling. Finally, Teacher Han said softly, "Just listen to your inner voice and make your own decision."

On the way home, I kept asking myself, "What made you not want to play in the finals?" After repeated questioning, the final conclusion is that the process of preparing for the game is too painful, and I am worried that it will be questioned if it is not done well. What was the reason why I entered the competition in the first place? Do you want to have a "beautiful" memory or complete your self-transformation? The answer is of course the latter. So the night after the preliminary round, I decided to take part in the final. The topic is my old job-efficient English learning, because I don't want to be questioned that I am not qualified.

Adjust your mood and finish your game experience, which is close to 12. I was about to turn off my phone and sleep when I suddenly received a phone call from Teacher Gu. I was shocked. Before I could say anything, Mr. Gu gave me a sweeping scolding and enumerated all kinds of improper behaviors before and after I entered the competition. I asked so many teachers before the game, but I didn't take their advice at all, and I didn't express my gratitude in time. I was reminded to ask questions by default before the game, but I didn't take it to heart. I was asked to practice more than 30 times before the game, but I failed. Even the night before the game, I was still revising the content. Finally, Mr. Gu ordered me to be conscious for three days and send him an introspective article on the third night.

After I hung up the phone, I couldn't hold back my inner grievances any longer. I burst into tears, crying and writing reflective articles. 1 hour later, I finally calmed down, but I couldn't sleep for a long time. In the past, everyone always said that it was very rare for me to have such a clear goal and strong action at my age. And when I really face the market and stand on the stage to accept the test, I find that society is so real and cruel.

I heard all kinds of voices after the game. Some said that because Mr. Angelie Liu took care of me, I could rehearse in advance and get guidance, while others said that I was a student of Mr. Grain Rain, so that I could finally enter the finals. Three days later, I sent the written reflection article to Mr. Gu, trying to express the ins and outs of the matter objectively to him, but Mr. Gu didn't reply for a long time. A day later, I received a cold letter from Teacher Gu, "Don't write any more. It's not how you write, but between the lines. " Afterwards, I learned that Teacher Gu sent this article to Teacher Han Ying, and Teacher Han Ying felt the same way. "It feels like describing the process of consulting many people, like expressing gratitude and explaining some of his behaviors."

After receiving such a reply, my heart is extremely depressed, and I want to escape, but I want to win a sigh of relief, not for anything else but to prove that there is nothing wrong with trusting and helping my teachers. As a post-90s generation, I may still be a "child" in the eyes of others, but didn't your predecessors show that amazing change when they were young? At the end of the final, what I want to hear most is the sentence "Don't scratch your eyes for three days". This is also my biggest motivation to participate in the finals.

Drawing lessons from consulting teachers everywhere in the preliminary round but not really adopting them, I decided to clear my mind first and then consult relevant teachers in the final round. During this time, I first read many books and videos about English learning, learned some popular courses in the market, and redesigned the course "English Fast Track-Learn any foreign language in 6 months" based on my own teaching experience and characteristics. At the same time, according to the students' feedback, we constantly revised the course content, and invited Mr. Han Ying and Mr. Xu Huawei to help us grind the class, revised it over and over again, and practiced it over and over again until they danced in their sleep.

Knowing that my figure and dress need to be improved, I took the initiative to ask Hema for advice. I am very grateful to Mr Ming Sheng for spending the whole day teaching me how to dress, make up and exercise. It is stern but full of love. On that day, the sound of "snapping" came from time to time in my ear. "Chest out and abdomen in" was originally a very simple word, but it is not easy to practice.

In order to be more photogenic, I insist on going to the gym from 7: 00 to 8: 30 every night, and I only eat some fruit and whole wheat bread for dinner. Reciting English articles when practicing standing posture before going to bed is painful and happy. Sometimes it hurts to think of those doubts at night, but I am more grateful to someone who urged me to keep moving forward when I was young.

2017 August 16, the final of the "One Belt, One Road" lecturer promotion competition in Shanghai finally arrived. This is the first picture I drew this afternoon. I smiled and said to Mr. Ma and Mr. Yu Xiong who came to Hangzhou to cheer me up: "After the first appearance, any other order is a cloud." Actually, I know I'm fully prepared. "Everything is ready, only the east wind." And I have been waiting for the arrival of this east wind.

After the game, many teachers praised me for my elegant and lovely dress and calm humor. In fact, I'm still nervous inside, and I still think I can do better. Only this time I rehearsed for 50 times and memorized the content, can I really have the energy to focus on the students and be "student-centered".

At the end of the Shanghai finals, I also completed the gorgeous "counterattack" of the second place in the final of the first six finals. When we set out for Hangzhou, Teacher Grain Rain smiled and asked me, "Are you satisfied now?" I smile like a child, confident and happy.

After the game, I was also questioned. Some say I am a performer, some say I don't even have a mature one-day course, and some say I can't win the runner-up at a young age. When I confided these troubles to Teacher Han Ying, a word from Teacher Han made me suddenly enlightened. She said: "Pan Pan, in the face of doubt, you can choose to explain or even escape, or you can choose to prove it with your actions. Think about what you can do after the game? "

Compared with the teaching style of Han Han's Rain, Gu's teaching style is as strict as a thunderstorm. He said to me, "Wang, as my student, no matter what the outside world says about you, you should be patient, improve your day's lessons as soon as possible, and speak with strength."

Thanks again to all the teachers who gave me help and encouragement. You gave me more courage to stand on the stage again and accept all praise and criticism naked. Thank you for your willingness to tolerate me and give me room to grow.

After tempering in the preliminary and semi-finals, this trip to Xinjiang has lightened a lot of burdens, and we can also focus on learning from other excellent teachers' manners and curriculum design and presentation. During these days of training in Xinjiang, I was fortunate to study with teachers such as Liu Jianjun, Han Ying, Xing Xiaoxiang, Guo Mei, Dan Wei and Shi Xiaolin, which broadened my thinking and consolidated my training skills. At the same time, I also met two post-90s teachers, Ma Jian and Mars, to discuss with each other and urge them to move forward.

Getting along with Ren and Yu Xiong made me realize that "the so-called high emotional intelligence is to make people feel comfortable". Helping others and being modest and eager to learn are their common qualities. Knowing how to give and serve others is what I should learn from them.

In the national finals, as a young lecturer, my performance really has great room for improvement. My field control ability, performance tension, reaction and interaction ability are worthy of my efforts, but if I can stand bravely on this stage and express myself confidently, I will be successful at this moment.

Looking back at this competition, I suddenly remembered a passage I saw on Teacher Gu's blog before:

Thank those who love me deeply, because you inspired my frankness; Thank those who help me, because you have strengthened my kindness; Thank those who laugh at me, because you have made my humor; Thank those who cheat me, because you have improved my wisdom; Thank those who deny me, because you have tested my open-mindedness.

After a painful transformation process, our post-90s novice lecturers are ready to enter the training circle. Are the seniors ready to take over?