My daily life with my senior sister (12)

The senior sister removed the lock on the door of the small room!

The reason was that the two of us had a quarrel and I was so angry that I couldn't sleep all night. I ran to the small room at around five o'clock and went to sleep in my pajamas.

She didn’t look for me after she got up. It wasn’t until she was hungry that she sent a WeChat message asking me how many hand pancakes I wanted to eat, but I ignored her.

Another hour later, she saw me through the window sleeping on the bed.

She called anxiously, opened the window and threw a few clothes, but found that they couldn't cover me. No matter how loud she shouted, I still ignored her. She walked to the door again and knocked hard, but I didn't. reason.

So she used force to remove the door lock, and then took two quilts to cover me. She wanted to reach out to see if I was cold, but I opened them with my hands.

After she left, a burst of heat hit me and I fell asleep again.

It was a quarrel, but it was more like I was making unreasonable noises. She promised to put me to bed at night, but she ended up putting herself to sleep, leaving me alone in a daze.

I wanted to fall asleep slowly, but the more I thought about it, the angrier I became, and the angrier I became, the more I couldn’t sleep. The past slowly emerged, and I began to convict her, and my dissatisfaction with her was infinitely magnified.

The reason why I am so angry is because this is not the first time. It happens almost every night!

After I got up, I ignored her. I didn’t want to touch the water she had boiled or the cakes she had made. She panicked and started crying, but I still ignored her and pushed her away. I thought Go into the small room again.

She blocked the way and asked me what happened?

Every time I get angry, I feel like I have experienced an earthquake disaster. She still doesn’t understand what happened?

I wanted to angrily scold her, blame her, or even continue to ignore her, but then I thought that there was no need for me to ruin my relationship again.

So the two of us sat on both sides of the sofa. She wanted to get closer, but I stopped her. I began to tell her her crimes calmly, and I choked up in the end.

Mainly, I remembered that when I was a child, it was also a very cold night. There was a thick layer of snow outside. I had an argument with my mother, and she threw my schoolbag in the yard. I was angry. I asked her to pick it up, but she turned around and went out, so I squatted motionless in the yard.

After she came back, I was covered with a thick layer of snow. She picked up my schoolbag and took it into the room without saying a word. I stood up stiffly and kicked the door angrily. The glass was shaken and buzzed. I threw my schoolbag into the yard again and stared at my mother fiercely. She asked me why I was so stubborn?

Then he turned around and left.

I kicked the door angrily again and walked into another cold room. The temperature was below zero. I locked the door alone and huddled in the corner. No matter how the people outside called me, I just couldn’t. When I opened the door, what I was thinking at that time was that I would rather freeze to death and make you regret it than open the door. Later, my dad smashed the glass of the window, climbed in, and coaxed me out.

The hatred between my mother and I was settled in daily life. The daily life of my senior sister and I was affected by our original family.

? 02?

In the end, my anger subsided, mainly because I couldn’t bear to watch my senior sister cry. My discomfort dissipated easily, but she was A person with a weak ability to digest emotions will be sad for a long, long time...

I sat on the stool and ate the cake with a smile, and she confided in her heart. After I finished eating, she approached with tears in her eyes. I.

At that moment, I couldn't help it, hugged her thigh tightly and cried loudly.

As I cried, I felt abandoned by the whole world when you ignored me. You always thought that I needed medicine when I felt uncomfortable, that I needed a quilt to sleep alone after a quarrel, and that I needed takeout when I was hungry. , In fact, I need you, your warmth, and your preference.

She also cried and touched my head and said it was all her fault.

My senior sister rarely reveals her true feelings. Every time she says it is her own fault, she will never change her mistakes, but this does not affect my love for her.

She also often asks, will I secretly reduce her points because of her shortcomings?

I said, I love you as a complete person. If it were separated, would I still call you you?

I will not deduct points for you because of your shortcomings. On the contrary, I will add points to you, because the shortcomings make you more real and comfortable, and because of the shortcomings, we will continue to improve each other, so, you As long as you are true to yourself, any problems that can be corrected are not called problems, but are called fun!

She giggled non-stop after hearing this and praised me for being so good at talking!

In order to prevent my senior sister from falling into a whirlpool of sadness, I offered to take her to eat delicious food. She first said she felt uncomfortable and didn’t want to move, and I began to describe to her how lively the food street was on Saturdays.

She then let me carry her to clean up the mess, so I had to carry her into the room, prepare her clothes for going out, wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, and kiss her by the way. The smile on her face slowly became brighter like the sunshine behind the dark clouds.

When we quarrel, we rarely say words that hurt our feelings or self-esteem, and we never argue endlessly to win or lose.

The purpose of quarreling is to accumulate experience in resolving conflicts, not to use the harshest words to hurt the person you love most. It may seem like you are venting your grievances, but in fact the knot in your heart is a little heavier.

I have adjusted the way we work together again and again, more to get rid of the poison of our original family and make us better, rather than becoming a copy of our parents!

? 03?

My senior sister is going to a party with her best friend and will stay out all night. I feel very sad after hearing what she said. For more than half a year since we have been living together, she will not care about anything as long as she goes out. No matter how late at night, I would wait for her to come back before going to bed.

I turned around and felt aggrieved. She hugged me from behind and said that she would come back no matter how late it was and would not leave me alone.

I said, you guys should get together after not seeing each other for a long time. I’m just a little sad. Just comfort me. I don’t really want you to come back to accompany me in the middle of the night. I’m sad to go home. Sorry, it’s a party, just send me more messages.

After hearing this, she kissed me hard.

After my senior sister left, I suddenly felt that the bed was so big. Every night I would lie on the bed and fight for position for half an hour, but now I felt that the free space could accommodate several people.

When she arrived safely at her destination, I wanted to sleep, but I was not sleepy. I lay down and watched the complete works of San Mao and watched movies. I accidentally watched a horror movie, which scared me even more and I couldn't sleep.

I didn’t even dare to go to the toilet when I had to urinate. I held it in all night, and it wasn’t until about 6 o’clock in the morning that I went to the toilet with my cat in my arms and turned on all the lights.

I am very afraid of the dark, but with my senior sister, I am not afraid of anything. I never think that I am clingy or pretentious, but in front of my senior sister, I become a child.

When walking, I hit my foot or hand. It obviously doesn’t hurt, but as long as I look at her, I feel the pain spread throughout my body. I will cry loudly, and she will be extremely nervous and run over to hug me and blow me. blow.

As long as she is close to me, all the pain turns into happiness. I cry and laugh at the same time, and the corners of her eyes will slowly turn red.

She said that she had only heard people say that she would burst into tears when she saw the one she loved crying. It turned out to be true.

I don’t know if this is the case. As long as I see her tears falling when we are not arguing, I will burst into tears, or even cry indiscriminately. In turn, she will comfort me. I!

Her aunt had a stomachache two days ago. I was hanging clothes and suddenly I saw her sitting at the door holding a doll. I said she felt so happy when I saw you sitting there. She said I was afraid of the dark. I just want to wait for me. The cold wind outside makes me shiver, but my heart feels so warm.

Every night when Senior Sister is on the air, I will clean the living room, kitchen and toilet, shovel the cat’s poop, exercise for half an hour, take a bath and wash my hair, read books, watch movies, write diaries, and wait for her If I want to eat delicious food after the broadcast, I will take her out for a meal.

Winter is here, the appetite has increased, the amount of exercise has not increased, and both of them have become a lot more plump.

Happiness is not about having a lot of things, but after having her, I am very happy!