"Who told me that relying on others is not good for me?" ...

Lin's Ci, Piano &; The violin music and Eason's voice made my heart tremble … I watched 12 Night twice, but I couldn't sleep after watching it every time. Once I was confused about the lion man who fell in love for the first time ten years ago, and once again I was confused about another lion man ten years later. Think of a classic comment in the film review, which can properly locate the position of this film in my heart: "What a cruel documentary it is, it is simply the peak of a love disaster film." I didn't quite understand it when I saw it for the first time, but I felt that this movie had a rippling heartache and inner awakening, which was imperceptible and unforgettable for a long time. I didn't understand it then. I think it was not because I was in a sweet happiness at that time, but precisely because I had realized the helplessness of "relying on others to treat me badly". But at that age, I was as confused and immature as Jenny in the film, and I would only "tie my hands to love you and love my feet until I don't know how to walk away" ... There are too many reasons for love, and I don't understand what I did wrong. I can only sink and sink until I am completely submerged, then suffocate, then die, and then I can be reborn ... The second time, when I saw that Jenny was unable to save her love, she was heartbroken and disheartened, and she exiled herself to England, hoping to redeem herself from this relationship. When I came back, I carefully explained to Allen in the coffee shop the day after the breakup. As an audience, I almost cried. Jenny looked up and found that Allen had fallen asleep ... how sad and bloody. My heart suddenly froze. At that moment, I seemed to find the critical point to reverse the disadvantage of love. If it were me, maybe at that moment, I wouldn't be sad anymore. I just looked at this love and this man in front of me calmly ... and then quietly left. When the person you deeply love who once loved you no longer loves you at the moment, there is really nothing you can do, then what you should do is to leave him and give him eternal freedom and space. If I were a director, I would stop here. Love needs no revenge. It just needs a tipping point for you to see clearly and put it down completely. Maybe this is the biggest punishment or fulfillment for each other? However, the director did not let go of love, and continued to dig deep into the tragedy of "being cheap" that is common in love. After this movie, it was the second time about sex between Jenny and Allen, but I couldn't see love clearly in Jenny's eyes and snorts. The man came back, his body came back, and even his feelings came back later, with all kinds of love and luck, but Jenny's own love and feelings were lost on the street corner ... Is this man really the one he has been looking for? Does this person really love himself so much? Suddenly I found myself blind, stood across the street and watched him panic, so I began to hide. I believe that Jenny's psychology at that time was neither jubilation nor sadness, but she just ran away indifferently and died with a cold heart. At this moment, Eason's "Stay at Night" will "dislike that you want to see each other again, and dislike that you want to go back on your word. Who told me to rely on others to treat me badly? Say goodbye to the familiar and match the unfamiliar. No wonder I miss fly ash forever. How can I not regret it? " The performance reached its climax ... In order to get rid of Allen, Jenny hid behind a strange man on the roadside. After some teasing dialogue, "1 night" appeared again in the image. I only feel that my heart has been scratched severely, and I feel a sigh ... I have to feel that the director's description of love is too cruel. We always hope that we won't make the same mistake next time, but the problem is that when you accidentally step into the next time, it's hard to be sure whether you have fallen into the same trap again. If the next 12 night is still such a helpless cycle, then we should review ourselves. Will we mistake everything for love? Or do you take a love mistake as everything? Why did you just beg me to love you more and be nice to you at first, and finally all this became an ugly burden in your heart? Why do you choose such a person to torture yourself and challenge your endurance in the vast sea of people? Since you can't find any reason to find love, can you stop obsessing about reasons if you don't love? I don't think I need to "rely on others to treat me badly", or you are the same. I think, if you can't catch it, let it go (thanks to photographer Zhuo Ma) end~