The trough-first meet the "want" and then start the "should"

? When life enters a trough, I am not interested in anything, I don't want to touch my work again, and I doubt the meaning of life. The struggle between myself who constantly gives up on my actions and myself who is unwilling to go on like this makes me almost collapse. My temper is getting bigger and bigger, my endocrine is out of balance, my mood is sensitive and fragile, and I want to eat something at any time, especially high-calorie sweets. I always tell myself that it is the last time, but the next time will come soon, so I will disintegrate my will and doubt my ability a little bit.

? Fortunately, in my thirties, I can detect that I am emotionally ill, find my own cause, and try to rebound in the trough. I bought several books to add spiritual food to myself, and I also found an idol and knew the direction of my efforts. I think it may be because I am too demanding of myself. I always look at excellent people and often project my dissatisfaction with myself. I read two books in two days of depression-"Right View" and "Manual of Energy Management", which are totally out of the same dimension. I cried after reading "Right View", and nothing made me sad. Think about that the family members who love each other now will be separated one day, and all that they are experiencing will be lost one day. They will strive for nothing in the end, and unconsciously doubt the meaning of living and struggling. Will those brilliant futures be just baby rattles, and whether success is just a deception? I even want to give up the pursuit of growing up with my children and strive for more time with my family, but is this life meaningful? Is this really what family members need? Since there will be nothing in the end, we can only make the process more exciting and happy. Life is a practice, thinking while moving forward and changing. Everything in the world is changing every minute. It seems that I am still the same person this morning and yesterday morning. However, the changes of body cells and things around me are updated every second. The text typed in the keyboard is also an unprecedented update. It seems that day after day, in fact, it never goes round and round. Time is a straight line that continues forward and never looks back. We are drifting down the river of time, and the seemingly similar scenery makes us have the illusion of stagnation. Only by constantly discovering changes can we always feel the flow of life and learn to cherish it. After reading the Energy Management Manual in one breath, there are some beneficial parts, such as managing your body and mind carefully, just like managing a business. There are also some parts that you don't agree with, and excessive rationality will also lose a lot of fun. Choose the person who agrees with you and follow it. Everyone should be a unique version. If you copy it successfully, you will not succeed!

? Wanting to be such a person is a vision for yourself in the future, a heartfelt desire, and a clear direction of the heart. Perhaps the words are too specific to describe, and a living person seems to be much more real there.

? Last night, I talked with my husband about hobbies. He said that he suddenly found himself a person with a wide range of hobbies. Recently, the crazy online class to learn photography and retouching seems to have once again activated his state. He occasionally drinks beer and plays guitar at night, and plays with the Transformers collected in the cupboard from time to time, and his life has come back to life. I am also a person with hobbies! For example, writing, I must like it very much, and it is something that can be sustained without deliberate persistence. For example, reading, even if you fall into a trough, you will still accumulate one book a day. For example, shooting a teaching video has been updated every day for a month. A video has to be NG many times, and in the later stage, every minute is devoted to more than two hours of time and energy, and I never feel that it is a burden, but it makes the life in the trough a little more fulfilling.

? Since there are so many things I want to do, why is it so depressed recently? Think carefully about what you want to do, and you are afraid of wasting time, and you don't want to do what you should do. If you don't want to do it, you don't want to do it. Make sure that you like writing and creating, and put a lot of time into it. Take out all the time wasted by hesitation and devote it to the field of sincere love, regardless of whether anyone reads it or not, and let the words flow freely. The gap that flows into the heart, the gap is filled, and the whole person will be complete. Since the time that you are afraid of wasting time and don't write is used to entertain foolish ideas, why not just waste time with things you like, even if time doesn't produce, at least it pleases you. For example, this morning, I got up at 5: 3 and made breakfast for my child, and then I began to type the code word on the keyboard. I unconsciously had two hours of flow time. If this time is a whole day, I think I would like to. Why hasn't it been like this on weekdays? What plans are unfinished in my mind, what problems still exist in the team, who are not in the state and how to activate them. These problems are always swirling in my mind, but they are not put into action to really solve them. The illusion of no action is a real waste of time. Taking stock before going to bed every day is full of disappointment, which has failed to make me happy, and has not solved the problem of work. I can't feel the joy of life and work, and naturally it is a stagnant pool.

? This morning, I was like a doctor who felt my pulse. I expressed my inner symptoms through words and made a profound analysis. At this moment, I feel much more comfortable when I look at nearly two thousand words. I understand that people can't always force themselves to do what they should do. For example, we know that coarse grains and vegetables are good for our health, and we still need delicious food to give us a little temptation to arouse our appetite and keep our health. Do what you like first, adjust the emotional button to the exciting file, and then do what you should do, and the efficiency will also be improved. In the process of work, to explore the excitement and find the flow part, what should be done is no longer so annoying.

? Starting today, keep getting up at five o'clock every day, and make early time for children to listen to English. After writing, you can indulge yourself as much as possible, write as long as you want, don't let it stop, continue to create happiness and concentration, and focus on independent thinking between essays. At night, the time after work is spent reading. Reading more will naturally improve the fluency of writing and expression, and it will also be enlightening in terms of ideas and dimensions. Reading at night and writing in the morning, the closed loop of input and output, will certainly make progress in the long run.

? Sima Qian and Cao Xueqin both completed their masterpieces that have been handed down through the ages under extremely bad conditions. The external environment did not affect their creation. They were able to persist, not because of perseverance, but because of their heartfelt love and desire. Their greatness seems sad, but in essence, the years of flow brought by their creation are a gift to their spiritual world.

? When people reach middle age, they still want to be better and still have love, which is a beautiful thing in itself. Starting today, waste your time writing boldly! Only when you have fulfilled your love can you create value.