Reread old books

Can't help but want to write something. If you don't write, you will feel depressed. Words seem to be the only way to vent.

I reread "I've been Walking for a Long Time" by canoe yesterday. I thought I might never touch this book again in my life. I put it under the bed, where I can't see it, and I don't allow myself or others to see it, as if it were a forbidden area, as if I could see all the sadness in my heart after reading it, but I forgot where there was so much empathy. For example, when I reread this time, I didn't cry again and again like I did when I first read it, and I didn't feel the same. Maybe it's because it's been too long. Today, it has been four days and three years since you first saw it. The first time I read this book was 2014.11.23, and I have only known you for one year and one month. It was the darkest time in my life for more than 20 years. You don't know that I can't do anything alone in the dark. You don't know how I cried hysterically when the dormitory was empty. You see, you don't know these things, but they have been with me for so long and changed me.

I remember a conversation between Chi and Shen on the phone in the book You Will Ruin Her Life. This sentence is the only sentence that left the deepest impression when I reread this book, just like a blow. I think of the innocent and sunny teenagers Guo Xiang and fenglingdu in The Condor Heroes. When they met for the first time, they were obsessed with Yang Guo. She met her condor and her hero, but she became a nun and founded Emei. From then on, she stayed away from the world of mortals and once read a poem about her.

The mountain didn't speak when I walked past it.

When I passed the seaside, the sea didn't speak.

Xiao Lv tick,

The eternal sword travels around the world with me.

Everyone says that because I love Yang Guo,

Just became a monk in Emei Mountain,

In fact, I just like the clouds on Mount Emei.

Much like sixteen-year-old fireworks.

It is still full of heartache. A beloved 16-year-old woman, because of curiosity, met a hero with colorful auspicious clouds, satisfied all the fantasies of 16-year-old girls, and got a grand reception from fate. She got an enviable surprise on her birthday, but the beginning of the story was a mistake, and he could never be her hero. I just don't know if she ever regretted meeting him in her heart.

Brother, this first silver needle is to see your true face.

Brother, this second silver needle is for your birthday.

Brother, this third silver needle wishes you to give up the idea of suicide and spend the rest of your life with the person you love.

In my mind. ...

Ji Ning, with a pear blossom and rain on her face, met Bai for the first time, but her unique temperament attracted countless readers and made him feel that she was unique and worth paying. From then on, everything she likes will appear. He taught her photography, taught her to develop her own photos, taught her to play golf, taught her to ride horses ... He took her to a place she had never seen, but told her that he was only taking her.

If she hadn't met him, maybe she would never have the present vision, but when she met him, it was her ability to love for several years. Fortunately, it's only a few years. Although I saw his news later, I couldn't help hiding my face and crying. ...

What about you? What if I didn't meet you? If I hadn't met you, maybe I already have a boy I like and have fallen in love. I have thought more than once that if I choose again, I will still choose to meet you, regardless of whether the ending will change or not, but now, I admit, I regret it. Even if you teach me to love someone, even if you leave me with thoughts and hopes, even if I learn more because of you, you are ungrateful to me. Although I know what it's like to love someone because of you, I have lost my love for others.

I will think of death, but I am afraid of it. I know I can't choose to take the initiative to end my life, because I am timid, and I am even afraid of death under objective conditions. I long for a long life, but I am afraid to bear the weight of life. I don't know how many secrets a person needs to hide to spend his life skillfully. The plateau illuminated by the Buddha is heaven in three steps and two steps, but there are still so many people who can't walk because of their preoccupations. If something goes wrong, they will fall leaves one after another. ...

I have thorns, I am not afraid of everything, even loneliness, but I am afraid of thinking of you and those who cry at night.

May all women meet their best love.

If she is not wet behind the ears, let her see the prosperity of the world.

If her heart changes, take her to play the merry-go-round.