Have you written some articles about the vague feelings of youth? .....

Kim HeeChul, there is nothing wrong with life, only missing.

By the river, happiness and rotten laughter meet for the first time

July 2000 10

"In July, it will snow." Kim HeeChul sat on a motorcycle, looked up at the sky and sighed gloomily. White clouds in the sky have special lines. A trace of sadness floated up, and Kim HeeChul suddenly pointed to the sky with indignation: "Ya Xi! Guys, why are you so sad? Are you lovelorn? ! ! ! "

On July 10, 2000, Kim HeeChul was 17 years old. There was no birthday party, no friends' blessings and no colorful gifts. Kim HeeChul was riding a motorcycle alone by the Han River. A month ago, his girlfriend of one year said to him, "I really can't stand it." Every time I go out with you, people's eyes are always on you I am a girl and I need one. " But I need people's envious eyes more. You are so beautiful! "

Seventeen-year-old Kim HeeChul has short hair, black casual clothes and a handsome face without any modification. There is no ear hole in the small earlobe. He plays motorcycles, smokes and drinks. He will fight with others when he is impulsive. It's just that nothing can hide his natural beauty. Kim HeeChul got off the motorcycle and sat on the railing beside the Han River. The low temperature of the chain is introduced into the body through the cloth. Kim HeeChul had no choice. "

"Are you a pervert?" The crisp voice was slightly unbelievable. Kim HeeChul wrinkled her delicate eyebrows, and the girl behind her leaned forward slightly. There was a faint smile and round dimples on her beautiful face. Kim HeeChul asked, "Who are you?"

"I am a passerby." The girl's answer made Kim HeeChul's head appear a few black bars and a few drops of water. "Brother, what are you doing?"

"ah! Do I know you well? Why do you call me brother, aunt! " Kim HeeChul's poison tongue began to attack again. The girl curled her lips and whispered, "What, then you are aunt's brother and you are uncle!" "

"ah!" Kim HeeChul just finished shouting and suddenly laughed. When the girl saw his smile, she immediately said, "Brother, you are so funny. You have to laugh like me!" The girl immediately opened a brilliant smile, but unexpectedly cute, especially the two small dimples on the corners of her mouth, which made people sink in like a whirlpool.

"Ha ha, you are so interesting!" Kim HeeChul, clutching his stomach, laughed. What brokenhearted and melancholy are all behind him. If he is brokenhearted, will his world-beater Kim HeeChul be lovelorn? ! Laughing enough, Kim HeeChul showed a girlish smile: "Passerby A, what's your name?" ? "

"Me? My name is Linger, Qi Linger. " Qi Linger's dimples gradually deepened, and his lovely face had indelible joy.

When we first met, I had a hunch that you were so beautiful that you should stand in a brighter place and shine your light. -Qi Linger

Roof, homesickness and sad heart.

200 1 July 10

"Xi che elder brother, why are you here again? Are you a pervert? When it comes to my birthday, I will pretend to be depressed here. " Qi shine unceremoniously said to Kim HeeChul sitting on the roof. Kim HeeChul gave her a contemptuous look back and turned back. Qi Linger stamped her feet with anger, climbed to Kim HeeChul's side three or two times and sat down: "Brother Che, don't you have any friends? Why do you come here every birthday? Sick? "

"You are a dead girl, how many times have you said abnormal condition? You have said it 730 times since we met! " Kim HeeChul gave a cry a little angrily, suddenly staring back at a pair of big eyes like bells, and Qi Linger almost didn't fall down. Qi Linger pursed her lips in grievance: "But brother, you are so happy at ordinary times, why are you particularly unhappy on your birthday?"

"I used to spend my birthdays with my family, you know?" Kim HeeChul curled her legs around her knees and bit her lips like cherry blossoms tightly. Her long eyelashes hung feebly but could not hide the sadness in her eyes. "When I was in Gangwon, I lived in a small mountain village. At that time, I always wanted to come to Seoul, so that I could earn a lot of money and take my parents to live a good life in Seoul from Gangwon Road, but ... "

"But the reality is always cruel, right, Brother Che Xi?" Qi shine turned to look at the starry sky. "When I came to Seoul, I didn't know what it was like to speculate about the world. People's warmth and coldness are not for us to decide. Living in Seoul is really difficult. Money is not so good to earn ... "

"None of that matters." Kim HeeChul helplessly smiled. "I found for the first time that my parents and I are inseparable. I thought I was an adult, but at this time, I miss them very much and I miss them incredibly. What can I do to shine? "

"If you miss them, go back and see them! Kim HeeChul, are you a coward? Why dare not go home! " Qi shine suddenly stood up, pointing to Kim HeeChul loudly said, "Kim HeeChul! If you can, go back to your hometown. Cheer up and return to Seoul. Look at you depressed! Are you still Kim HeeChul? ! Are you still the invincible Kim HeeChul? ! What is homesickness? My home is still in America. I don't want home! ! ! "

"Qi shine, you rebel? I am your brother! Why don't you say honorific words! ? "Kim HeeChul's sadness hasn't been swept away, so he stood up and pointed to Qi Linger's nose. After Qi Linger was scolded, he vomitted to stick out his tongue, and the dimples were exposed again. Kim HeeChul's anger was reduced by half by the sweet and soft whisper: "Sorry, Brother Xiche, aren't you like this?"? Look, this is my Xi car brother! "

"Nothing, I will forgive you this time." Kim HeeChul wittily blinked one eye and smiled with a trademark smile. The melancholy just now was completely swept away, and her beautiful face proudly said, "Linger, when will you accompany me to Gangwon?" "

"Gangwon, I really want to go." Linger's face changed from apology to yearning. Xi Che rolled his eyes and looked back. She said happily to Xi Che: "Brother Xi Che, let's take people away from here. Now I can't accompany you to Gangwon. "

Did I lead you astray and let you learn to comfort others in this way, but it really made me happy, because when I was homesick, I was at least with you, and the only person who really wanted to take Gangwon was you ...-Kim HeeChul.

Fate, bright red leaflets

July 2002 10

"Brother! Brother! " Qi shine 1 of "bang" pushed open the door of Kim HeeChul, abruptly dragged Xi Che out of the warm bed. Che rubbed his head, grinned at Qi Linger and shouted, "You dead girl, keep your voice down. I came back from a hangover last night. Can't you see my clothes haven't changed yet? I have a terrible headache. Go and get me a bowl of hangover soup! "

"What? Am I my brother's maid? " Qi Linger waved red paper disgruntled and pursed her lips. "If I had known, I wouldn't have worked so hard to grab leaflets for you."

"What leaflet, show me." Kim HeeChul stretched out his hand to catch leaflets, qi shine deftly retract a hand, vomit vomit tongue. He made a face: "I won't show it to you!" "

"ah! Ah! Ah! ! ! You girl, I'll go back to bed if you don't tell me! " Kim HeeChul disdained the pie pie, and Qi Linger quickly grabbed Kim HeeChul: "Ok, I will show you, so stingy, this is the star cast list of SM company, brother, I will help you sign up!"

"what! Why don't you discuss it with me? ! "Kim HeeChul stare big eyes, what a hangover, what a headache, he is awake, this girl is more and more presumptuous.

"Brother, don't worry!" Qi Linger sat next to Kim HeeChul: "Wouldn't it be nice to give it a try? If you fail, treat it as a game. If you succeed, you can become a star! So gangwon's brother's family sees him every day? Brother, go and attend. No matter what those guys say, I will always support my brother. My brother sings so well, dances so well and looks so good. It is a pity to be an artist. Brother, why don't you try? Ok? "

"What did you say?" Kim HeeChul squinted, and Kurome turned: "Well, I promise you this time."

"Brother Xi is the best!" Hearing Kim HeeChul's words, Qi Linger jumped on Kim HeeChul with joy, and Kim HeeChul blushed: "Ah! Come down, you are dead! "

"I know, I know, Xi's brother is really stingy." Linger pursed her mouth and climbed down. Xi Che pointed his finger at Ringo's nose. "I promise you to go for an interview, but you have to promise me that if I really debut, you must help me record my debut performance."

"This ... of course ..." Shine's eyes obviously slipped over something, but they slipped too fast, leaving no trace, which made Kim HeeChul unable to see clearly.

As long as you don't let me wait too long, as long as it won't be too long, I won't let my brother go back to America, so I can see your debut performance, Linger thought.

If I knew, that damn flyer would tear my life to pieces, I would definitely tear it to pieces. -Qi Linger

Parks, lonely fireworks

65438+2004122 October

Today is the New Year. Kim HeeChul wore a shawl and sighed. He has been an intern for such a long time. Do you want to go back to Gangwon today? My parents must wait for me at home. At the thought of going home, Kim HeeChul suddenly thought of Han Geng, a China trainee in the same dormitory, spending the New Year alone. "

Just thinking, the phone rang, and when I answered the phone, I heard Linger's angry tone: "Brother, can't you change the color ring back tone?" Is brother a ghost? If this happens again, I will never call my brother again! "

"Know know, what do you want? The car replied helplessly, while Linger pursed her mouth at the other end of the phone and replied, "Brother, today is the New Year. Let's go out and watch fireworks. They said there would be fireworks today. "

"Well ..." Xi Che hesitated, and Shine frowned. "Brother, do you have an appointment with other girls? How could you do that? Didn't we agree to live together before? "

"No, in fact, you know what? Haven't you met the intern from China in our dormitory? Han Geng. " Xi Che bit his lower lip and said with a smile. Linger suddenly made the car feel ashamed: "Oh, is that the handsome brother Han Geng from China?"

When the car heard this sentence, a big drop of sweat dripped from his forehead. Why does he get excited when he mentions handsome guys? "Yes, Han Geng spent the New Year alone, so I just wanted to go back to spend the New Year with him. By the way, I will call him in China, Hao Yun, one day, Junxiu, Changmin, Yingdong, Yingyun, He Zai, Donghai and Zheng Xiu. You know, they just started out in middle school. When they debuted, I only made a phone call and didn't officially say it, so I also want to celebrate their smooth debut. "

"Oh, yes, then, I won't call you." Linger's voice was a little gloomy, and Xi couldn't help it: "Linger, are you coming?"

"No, my brothers and I are not familiar with each other. Not that I have no friends except my brother. Brother, next time, can you take me to Gangwon? " Linger made up her mind and finally said what had been brewing for a long time, but Han Geng's voice and a little wrong Korean came from her ear: "Car, why don't you go home?"

"ah! The princess is in a good mood today, and you should be grateful to accompany you for the New Year. " Xi Che put the phone away to answer, but he didn't hear Linger. He just said, "Linger, if you don't come, forget it. Okay, hang up."

Linger doesn't know if Che didn't hear that sentence, but she just smiled helplessly: "It turns out that you never liked me ... it's just my wishful thinking ..."

The phone rang and Linger answered it. The mature man said softly, "My little princess, it's time for you to go home."

"See, brother, I'm waiting for an ending. It's worthless, but give me another year. When I have the result, I will go home immediately. "

"Whatever you say ..." Hung up the phone, fireworks rose behind him, and Shine looked at the dazzling fireworks, and the liquid called tears fell gently. Kim HeeChul, maybe we never started, so it won't end.

Just as I watched the fireworks fall so beautifully. Brother Che Xi, you gave me all hope. Like fireworks, it fell violently to the ground and broke into pieces. Is the gentle and calm sky a place to make fireworks sad? Brother che, you are the sky, and I am a firework that I can't chew. Even if it is just a moment of gorgeous, I will let you see the most beautiful me. -Qi Linger

Stage, brilliant parting

165438+20051October 6th

Super Junior's first performance is today. During the three-year internship, Xi Che and Ringo kept in touch. Twenty-two-year-old Kim HeeChul learned to wear bright clothes, buy pink shawls and get her ears pierced. She learned how to make her beauty stand out, how to keep her hair long and how not to show her former image to the world.

Today is his first performance. Kim HeeChul's heart almost stopped beating. He turned to his teammates and said, "Enh, lend me your mobile phone." Enhe immediately put his mobile phone on his chest: "What, you're not going to make a long distance call, are you? My mobile phone is running out of power. "

"Ah west! Li He is really a cheapskate. I'll pay you back right away. " Kim HeeChul grabbed the phone and dialed his familiar number. "I'm a princess, I'm a princess, and I'm an invincible Princess Shine" rang in his ear. Che Xi couldn't help laughing, gave the phone to Che Xi and asked, "Linger, where are you?" Today is my first performance in Kim HeeChul. If you don't come, you're dead "

"Sorry, brother." Qi Linger's voice was mixed with faint helplessness. "I was caught by my brother and will be taken to America today. I'm sorry, your debut performance seems to be gone ... "

"what! Say it again! " Kim HeeChul shouted, "What do you think I'm trying so hard for? If you hadn't pestered me every day, I would not be in SM long ago! Now you say you can't see my premiere. What's the use of saying sorry now? What's the point of performing without you ... without you? ! ! "

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, brother. I really went today, and I was caught as soon as I entered the stadium. Sorry, Brother Xi Che. "

"What is this! Are you angry that I haven't gone out with you properly in three years? Are you angry that I went to accompany Han Geng and didn't accompany you for the New Year? You asked me to be an artist, so I don't have time? What evil did you commit today? "

"What do you mean I made a mistake, my brother is! Just ... if my brother takes me with him! Why didn't my brother take me to Gangwon? It doesn't matter whether I am in Seoul or not, and it doesn't matter whether I am an artist or not. I like being with my brother, and I like his smile, so I try to please my brother! Brother knows nothing, brother, you are so selfish! Brother ... You, don't you, have never liked me ... "

"What?" Before Kim HeeChul could say a word, there was a sound of battery exhaustion in his ear. Kim HeeChul slammed his mobile phone to the ground and drew a tragic arc: "You are here! *D Don't you charge your mobile phone when you go out? You don't know that Junxiu will call you when she debuts! "

Enkh froze for a few seconds, then jumped on the East China Sea: "Boo-hoo, Donghai, Brother Che bullied me ~ ~" Lee Dong Hae struggled to throw Enkh down with disgust. "Don't disgust me, stay away from me!"

The atmosphere backstage was immediately embarrassed, and many people looked at them askance. Where is this like a debut group? How can it be embarrassing to play right away? Sensitive Han Geng noticed these eyes and couldn't help poking Te Li, the lineup. His mouth is always soft, and there are several mistakes in Korean: "Brother, are you reconciled ..." Te Li just came back from his own dimension. "Yes, yes, everyone is gathered here and will be on stage soon!"

Twelve people gathered together to form a slightly larger circle, folded their hands and said, Super Junior Super Junior fights! ! It proves that they are a collective that can no longer be separated, but in their eyes, there is some sadness. ....

You asked me if I never liked you, yes, I never liked you, because ... I love you, without your debut stage, it's just a one-man show, with me but without you ...-Kim HeeChul.

Network, fault-free memory.

July 2007 10

"Happy birthday, brother," everyone said in unison except Te Li and Han Geng. Han Geng raised his voice in the kitchen, but it was still soft: "Hey ~ Somebody help me! I'm telling you, I'm exhausted. No one can help you cook, wash clothes, clean the room, make the bed and pack your luggage! ! "

"Wait a minute, Brother Geng, let me help you!" 250 immediately jumped up, and Donghai threw him to the ground: "Come on, you, you go to this 250, and you still want the car to have a good birthday!"

"Happy birthday, brother." Choi Siwon sincerely handed a gift to the Children's Palace. Kim HeeChul took a look, turned to the little steamed stuffed bun and said, "Fan Ji, this is from your old brother Cui Youtong. Do you have to send a psp? "

Han Geng ran out of the kitchen. "Xi, cut, don't be so unkind, ok? He didn't know what to send at first. Che Xi, you don't seem to be interested in anything except pink. If only we could give you some birthday presents ... "

"ah! Are you accusing me? ! How did this princess make you angry again! " Xi Che jumped up from the ground, grabbed the shawl on the hanger and walked out angrily. Te Li hurriedly wanted to hold him: "Xi Che ..." Qiang Ren grabbed Te Li's arm and shook his head. Li Te looked back and saw that Han Geng's face was not very good, so he had to say nothing. Sheng Min whispered, "What does it matter if the Xi Che brothers go out?"

Han Geng reluctantly smiled: "Nothing, the car. When he is hungry, he will find it himself. Let's wait for a while, shall we? " ? "

"Well, good ..." Twelve people were sitting in the dormitory, each with his own worries. Obviously it was a lonely scene, but Kui Xian said a word to Sheng Min: "Brother, if I really die in a car accident one day, will everyone be so lonely?"

"Brother Xi Che said he wouldn't cry." Kifan woke up from the psp world: "Because if you die, there will be no Super Junior. He said that life is wrong and he doesn't want to have a second time ... "

In fact, Xi Che didn't go far, because he was scolded by the company more than once, because he told his favorite girl against the company's wishes. He and Han Geng often quarrel, and their relationship is not as good as before. Han Geng always talks about why he speaks without considering the consequences. Do you know that he is an artist? Soft tone and angry expression always remind him of shine. Every time I have a quarrel with Han Geng, I go to a nearby Internet cafe. He opened a private room, opened his mail and read a letter carefully, a letter from America.

"The elder brother of the car, I am shine, are you ok? I really haven't written to my brother for a long time. Sorry, but my brother is an artist, so I don't use email very much. I have a good life in America and now I live in California. I can watch Korean programs through the Internet. I often watch my brother's programs, and I have a heart of night. After reading them, I am really glad that you finally have a girl you like. My brother's confession is very touching. I even think when I watch it. My brother never said he liked me, it was just my wishful thinking. My brother is so good that I am just an irrelevant passer-by to my brother ... by the way, it seems that my brother is talking about himself. Doesn't brother often say this to petals? Don't treat me as the first, you can't treat me as' all', you can only treat me as' supply'. Maybe in my brother's heart, I am also a' donor', but I really like that my brother cares about me inadvertently. I helped you step on CY before, and sometimes it's a pity that my brother turned off CY. It's all those mistakes. Don't mention it if you don't like my brother's family ... Really, I forgot something important when I visited you, brother. Next week, I'm getting married. My fiance is Korean-American and is very kind to me. I hope my brother can get married soon. Brother, I'm sorry to keep bothering you. This is my last letter to you. Take care, brother. I was scared when something happened to you, brother. Brother said that as long as you don't stop breathing, there will be no misfortune. Brother needs to refuel! Don't hold back when your leg hurts, just say it, okay? Please don't be so stubborn and proud, which worries me. " -Qi Linger

A drop of crystal clear liquid crossed Xi Che's cheek. Linger, you know nothing. That confession is for you. June 25th, isn't it your birthday? I deliberately chose that day to say it. Can't you see the day in America? The first time we met by the river and chatted on the roof, I really wanted to take you to my hometown in gangwon. Only the two of us, only Kim HeeChul and Qi Linger. We can be together forever, but our life is recorded as a mistake, and this is a mistake. ......

At that time, when the clock struck twelve o'clock, Kim HeeChul opened the door of the dormitory and saw twelve people holding gifts. He said to him loudly, "Happy birthday, Princess Cinderella."

"How did you ... know I would come back?" Che looked at the Committee members in surprise. Didn't he say there would be a notice tomorrow? Why don't you go to bed so late?

Ritter, of course, showed beautiful dimples: "Of course, because, Xi Che, you are Cinderella, of course you will be back before twelve o'clock."

"But our Cinderella is still a princess after twelve o'clock." Qiang Ren couldn't help joking. Xi Che rubbed his eyes and wiped away the traces of tears: "Ah! Don't think that giving me something will make me forget that you didn't take me to China. You see, this princess won't punish you! "

The dormitory was full of laughter at once, because there were thirteen of them, and there was no more missing in their lives. ......

Linger, it's hard to be an artist, but I'm really happy to have members to accompany me. I hope you can have a happy marriage, Linger. Now I finally know that there is nothing wrong with life, only missing. I missed my lover, but I can't miss my friends again, whether it's Kim HeeChul in Super Junior or Kim HeeChul in Super Junior-T, whether it's singer Kim HeeChul or actor Kim HeeChul. Even if my prince's illness and high profile are the biggest reasons why ANTI hates me, I will still be myself, so watch carefully, I will be the excellent Kim HeeChul you like ... I have played motorcycles, smoked cigarettes, drunk and fought, but I have never been in real love. This time, although I can't associate with you, at least I can't be Kim HeeChul-I don't deserve your Kim HeeChul.