Sooner or later, you have to bear the responsibility

When I was a child, I always had a wish, that is, to grow up quickly. When I grow up, I can study freely on the university campus, freely develop my nature, and freely control my own life. .

I always hear adults say how carefree their childhood was, how they miss it but can’t go back.

However, what they said about how difficult the society is and how hard it is to survive makes me feel uncomfortable. The curiosity I had never experienced before turned into the accelerant of time, allowing me to start to feel everything I had to go through in this already ordinary graduation season.

01

In the first semester of my senior year, I worked as a membership consultant at a school gym - selling fitness cards. There were two reasons for going there in the first place. First, I like to keep fit, and I can meet a lot of friends who can learn from it. Second, I can work hard to make more money, so I can prepare to travel abroad with my friends.

When I first went there, I seemed to have endless energy and enthusiasm. I walked into the workplace on time every day, followed the leader’s instructions, distributed leaflets, communicated with customers, and learned how to succeed. one.

But after a period of time, the effect was far less than expected. The work that started with enthusiasm became monotonous and boring.

Only a little bit of unwillingness made me continue to linger inside. Over time, if the performance is not up to standard, there will always be a supervisor to talk to.

The supervisor is also a student, one year younger than me, but his social experience and way of doing things are beyond my reach.

That day, I was wandering between trying hard and giving up, and had a little communication with him. He expressed his helplessness and confusion, and asked him what made him work so hard.

He said with a serious face: "Because I just want to make money, and I want my mother to live a good life." "When others hand out 300 leaflets, I hand out 500. Others are complaining and suffering. When I was tired, I worked hard to use all publicity resources to promote, with this belief in my heart, not only to achieve the best performance, but also to earn the reward that I am most satisfied with..."

In the conversation that day, although his face was full of perseverance and sincerity, he was not sensible enough, but my heart never wavered. Later, I learned something about the situation. Just when he first started working, something happened at home, and he went home for a while. He doesn't know the specific situation, but he can imagine the pain this incident caused him and the responsibility he had to bear.

Maybe he was once like me, willful and evasive, but a sudden burden changed everything.

In fact, sometimes, we see some people who are the same age and same status as us, but have different minds, different all-rounders, and different alienations. In fact, maybe, they It’s just that we experienced some hardships earlier than us and took on everything that is unexpected for a child earlier.

?02

In my life, there are two childhood friends who accompanied me when I was young.

One of the characters, Ting, has divorced parents and lives in her grandmother’s house. That is my neighbor. In my memory, my aunt didn’t come back often because she had to go out all year round to make money for her to study. She has lived in her grandma's house since she was a child and grew up with me.

Ting's biggest characteristic is that she loves to laugh. She has a big mouth, and this signature smile can always take up half of her face. The two dimples look like they were dug out. Every time I see her showing her big white teeth, I want to say three words, silly and sweet.

I remember when I was a teenager, my aunt bought a new house. At that time, our school was very close to there, so Ating would go home to live there on weekends. However, my aunt's work requirements often changed her travels, and later she went directly abroad. So only Ting lives in the house.

When we were acting coquettishly in front of our parents and buying snacks, she was trying to cook at home. When we were making firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, she was on her way to pay the utility bills for each purchase. When we met guests who came to our home and said hello shyly, she prepared the arrival of relatives and friends all by herself....

In short, everything seemed to be solved well by her. .

At such an age, so independent, so mature, and with such a sweet signature smile, she has been what my parents said since she was a child. Of course, they also became my role models for a time. There is a year difference, but more people say that I am more like a child. So since I was little, I have always understood things like a younger brother, and I followed my elder brother around for many years.

Originally, this might be considered a sad drama, but when I picked it up and watched it, I was made to think that she was more sentimental.

The day I really got to know her was the night I went to her house to spend time with her on a weekend. That night, we talked for a long time, talking about the future since childhood, talking about everything, and talking about the envy, jealousy and hatred that I felt towards her slowly in my heart.

I said: "I really envy you for being so independent. You can do everything well and be well organized. I am so tired of being lectured by my mother all day long."

The air seemed to pause for a few seconds and she giggled.

"I envy you. There are so many people at home who care about you and help you. In fact, you don't have to do these things at all. You still have eldest sisters and aunts to do it for you. How nice. As for me, I just can't I just had to take some responsibility for myself earlier. "

"It's good, but it's not good at all. I've heard enough of those big principles." I replied angrily. Although there were waves in my heart, I didn't understand what she said at that time.

Now when I slowly enter the society and face some things alone, I gradually realize it. A person must bear something.

She envied the warmth and harmony in my family, with the company of my parents and the care of my sister. I envy her freedom and her independence. We are both envious of each other, but we are also troubled by each other. No one will escape the butcher's knife of time. She will always be a child cared for by her family. Maybe she needs to bear the burden early on. A little late, maybe I'm a little late, that's all.

The other hair boy was so unruly, with a head of messy hair. The curls he was born with were very different from others. The dull hair was flying freely, as if he was yearning for the outside world. , flying wildly as if desperately trying.

No wonder, Xiao Hei is a comic otaku. We have known each other for more than 20 years, and I can count on one hand the number of times she has left home to play with me.

Every time I go to her house, I can always find her in the "little dark room", curled up on the quilt, tired on the computer, with Naruto playing on a loop, and I can hear her giggling from time to time.

Graduation season is approaching and I have more time. I went to Shenyang to find her a while ago. Naturally, he talked about finding a job.

When it comes to finding a job, Xiao Hei loses interest in talking about animation. I didn't quite understand what he was saying. He just muttered that he didn't want to hear these things. Randomly happily changed the subject.

Seeing this, I didn’t say much. After all, for normal social graduates like us, the fear of entering society is so unacceptable, let alone a home girl like her who has not even had much contact with her childhood.

Until I heard the news from my friend yesterday, she had returned to school to find a job. I was a little surprised but also happy, and proactively asked about the current situation and changes.

"Actually, it's nothing. I've been escaping for a long time. Although I was playing freely, I was restless and complaining about myself. Maybe I suddenly figured it out. It was indeed a time. It's time to take some responsibility for myself. "

"And, the moment I admit and take responsibility for things that I once thought were so difficult, I feel much better."

"Because. Take responsibility for yourself", such a familiar saying. It turns out that growing up is the moment when you understand that you need to take responsibility.

Maybe Lin and I are more alike. The comfortable family environment is taken care of in every possible way, but when everything is suddenly asked to do something as you grow older, you will feel a little at a loss.

However, this is not terrible, as Ting said: "It all has to be experienced. When you gradually get used to it, you will find a more powerful and potential self."

? 04

A few days ago on the way to work, I saw junior high school students riding bicycles to school. Seeing them laughing and playing happily, it was the first time that I felt I have really passed that age.

When we were children, we always asked our parents to wipe our ass after doing bad things. Unknowingly, we taught our parents how to operate the new era technology. Looking back slowly, in fact, sometimes this is the case. When they When our ability gradually fades and we gradually become dependent on us, it is also the time when we gradually gain our own value and assume responsibility.

Experience and environment will slowly devour our innocence, but they will also bring about another self who can love and give.

Everyone wants to be that carefree child, not that responsible adult who worries about everything. When suddenly one day, the sharp knife of time hangs over the head, forcing him to bear everything, maybe not yet. Prepare, it may come so suddenly, but in the end no one can escape.

So we might as well calm down, slowly accept and learn to bear all the changes that time brings, no matter how early or late it comes, whether it is good or bad, when things have happened, we will You will find that everything is not so scary after all.

When you face it, you accept it, and when you accept it, you grow.

As you grow up, life becomes more interesting.

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First public account: Gongzi Nanmo