Follow your heart and you will not be tired.

Date: 2017.8.20?

Weather: Shower outside the window

Mood: neither sad nor happy

(1)

Summer vacation started on July 1st, and it has been more than a month now. On the tenth day after returning home, I have become accustomed to a comfortable life at home, which is comfortable but not boring, peaceful but not boring.

In the last month, I followed the teacher at school to do experiments, participate in competitions, and also take care of the tutoring class substitute work. I was busy but also fulfilling. Occasionally, I would watch a movie to relax during the break, or go to the library alone. Reading, walking on the playground, hanging out in the supermarket, living like an old cadre, everything is quite complete.

As a student who is about to be a junior in college, I am actually scared inside. I want to improve my grades, but I can’t calm down. I am also terrible at learning English. I always think too much and pay too much. There is too little action, and sometimes I am so anxious that I cannot sleep peacefully.

I recently revisited the classic "A Dream of Red Mansions" and was deeply attracted by its story. I like Daiyu's true temperament, knowing the world but not being worldly, and never forgetting the original intention, so that she can always succeed.

Now I gradually understand that if you follow your inner thoughts, you can live a smooth life. Don't compromise easily or make do with things. Be a real person and be good to others and yourself.

I remember that the musician Xu Song once said in his essay and photo album "Aura of the Sea":

This sentence impressed me deeply. Sometimes a person can live a cool life in front of others. There is no sadness in being behind the scenes.

Be true to yourself, follow your heart, and learn to accept yourself. There are not so many audiences in a person's life, and there is no need to live so tiringly.

? (2)

In late July during the summer vacation, the temperature in my city was as high as 40 degrees. Every day at noon when I took the bus to go to class in the city center, I felt like my pants were about to melt. All that was coming was hot wind.

There was no hot water in the school, and there was only one cafeteria with two windows. There was still one fan in the dormitory and one for me. At that time, when I came in every day and greeted the building manager aunt, I talked the most outside of class. She is gentle in speech and has a good personality. She often sits in the room singing and is very young at heart.

It’s already past eight o’clock when I return to school after work every night. It’s still cooler outside at this time, and the elderly people in the family building all go out for a walk, enjoying themselves leisurely.

Passing by the acacia tree in front of the apartment building, you can see an aunt selling fruit and her daughter, who is about sixteen or seventeen years old, sitting on a stone platform.

Every time I go to my aunt to buy pears, she will save the change. Five yuan and three is five yuan. I think it is not easy for my aunt to do business. Later, I transferred money to her through WeChat, even if I had the change. Even if I give it to Quan, she will still give me one more, she is warm and generous.

After returning to the dormitory to prepare for the class, I was so sleepy that I was about to fall asleep. Two times I came back at night to do experiments. I sat alone in the laboratory on the fifth floor, and the water flowed from the tap. Water can be used to wash hair, and the temperature is around 30°C. You can imagine how high the indoor temperature is.

What I happened to do was an experiment on temperature control. It was 30 degrees indoors and the temperature had to be controlled at 15 degrees Celsius. There was only one water bath that could be used directly (with automatic temperature adjustment), and everything else had to be ice-cold. Come to cool down, a group of four experiments, one person has to weigh, rinse, set up the device, filter, and put notes. He is so busy that he talks to himself and blurts out the next steps. Sweat drops penetrate the T-shirt, and the sweat beads flow smoothly. Rolling down his cheeks.

At that time, I was still myself, so no matter how tired I was, I could only hold on. Although the conditions were more difficult, I would not fail if I was determined, and the final result did not disappoint my persistence.

You have to work hard, don't be anxious, take your time, and calm down.

? (3)

Recently at home, I did not choose to update daily. I also know that I don’t like to force myself to write, so I often read many articles by great masters and learn from them. When I learn some writing methods and learn from the best, I will slowly use them in my writing, follow my heart, and continue to persevere.

There is a girl with whom I have a good relationship. She got a boyfriend in the second semester of her sophomore year. We all wished her well at that time. Later, there were several weekends when she said that her mother was urging her to go home, and we were also very happy. I understand that her home is not far from the school, and my roommates and I are very relieved about her.

It wasn’t until the next night, when we saw her boyfriend’s post, that we found out they were together and she hadn’t gone home.

Although this matter is nothing to my roommate and I, we care about her and do not ask her to tell us everything. We just don’t go against her own heart, let alone feel wronged. Self, say untrue things and be untrue selves.

Later on, I got used to this kind of thing. I didn’t know what to say, and I wasn’t qualified to say anything. I just felt a little regretful.

I would rather you give me something other than what I want, rather than be an unreal self and live an unhappy life.

The same is true for lovers. I like you just like you, and I am willing to tell everyone, because this is what I think in my heart. You should not choose to be with me because you are moved or sympathize with me. I know that. This relationship doesn't last long, and we're not happy together. It's really tiring.

I can tolerate all your shortcomings, but if you don't follow your heart, then I don't think we will get along well.

A long-lasting story requires treating each other sincerely. While I try my best to treat you, I hope you are sincere. If not, please tell me as soon as possible to avoid both of you being hurt.

My advice to you:

Be true to yourself and follow your inner thoughts, so you won’t be tired.