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This is the most touching composition I have ever read. I have been there and I am fine.

Helpless father

There is a beautiful little girl, her name is She Yan, she has a pair of big sparkling eyes, and she has a bright childlike innocence. She is an orphan. She has only lived in this world for eight years. Her last words in this world are "I have been here, I am fine". She wants to die in autumn, and her slim figure is like the process of a flower blooming naturally. When yellow flowers are piled up everywhere and fallen leaves are flying in the air, she will see geese flying far away. She voluntarily gave up treatment, divided the 540,000 yuan life-saving money donated to her by Chinese people around the world into seven parts, and gave her life as a cake of hope to seven children who were hovering on the line of life and death.

I voluntarily gave up treatment.

She didn't know her biological parents when she was born. She only adopted her father.

1996165438+1October 30th, that is, the twentieth day of the twelfth lunar month, because "Dad" She found the newborn baby who was about to freeze to death in the grass beside a small bridge in Shenjiachong, Yongxing Town, and put a small note on her chest, which read: "65438.

She lived in Group 2, Yunyan Village, Sanxing Town, Shuangliu County, Sichuan Province, and was 30 years old at that time. Because her family is poor, she can't find a partner. If she wants to adopt the child, I'm afraid no one wants to marry into this family. Looking at the baby crying like a kitten in her arms, she put You Shi down and picked him up several times, and turned and walked back. This little life has been crying very weakly with cold, and no one cares about it. I'm afraid I'll die at any time! Biting his teeth, he picked up the baby again and sighed, "You can eat whatever I eat."

She named the child She Yan because she was born in the autumn harvest season. When a bachelor became a father, he didn't have breast milk and couldn't afford milk powder. He could only feed him rice soup. Therefore, she Yan was weak and sick since childhood, but he was very smart and sensible. Spring comes and goes, just like a small flower on a bitter vine. She Yan grows up day by day and is surprisingly clever. Neighbors said that the doll she found had a high IQ and everyone liked her. Although she was ill since childhood, she Yan grew up slowly in her father's fear.

A child with a hard life is really unusual. From the age of five, she knew how to help her father share the housework. She does everything well in washing clothes, cooking and mowing grass. She knows that she is different from other children. All the other children have parents, only she and her father are in her own home. This family depends on her and her father to support it. She should be very good, and don't let her father worry and get angry more.

When she was in elementary school, she Yan knew that she should be eager to learn and make progress, and get the first place in the exam. Her illiterate father will have a good face in the village, and she has never let him down. She sang to her father, told him all the interesting things that happened at school, carefully pasted every little red flower she got on the wall, and occasionally made a naughty debut to beat her father ... Whenever she saw the smile on her father's face, she would secretly satisfy herself: "Although I can't have a mother like other children, I am very happy to live like this with my father."

Since May 2005, she often has nosebleeds. One morning, she Yan was about to wash her face when she suddenly found a basin of clear water turned red. At first glance, blood is dripping down the nose, and no matter what measures are taken, it can't be stopped. I really can't help it. She You Shi took her to the township health center for an injection, but the small needle eye also bled and there were many "red spots" on her legs. The doctor said, "Go to the big hospital!" " When she came to Chengdu Grand Hospital, it was the peak of consultation, and she couldn't get out at all. A person sitting on a bench, clutching his nose, nosebleeds straight down like two lines, dyed the floor red. He felt embarrassed and had to pick up the bedpan to receive blood. In less than 10 minute, the blood in the basin is half full.

As soon as the doctor saw it, he quickly took the child to check. After the examination, the doctor immediately gave him a critical notice. He has acute leukemia!

The medical expenses for this disease are very expensive, and the cost is generally 300,000! She is confused about You Shi. Looking at his daughter in the hospital bed, he dared not think too much. He has only one thought: save her! Borrowing from relatives and friends, the patchwork of money is just a drop in the bucket, too far from 300 thousand. He decided to sell the only adobe house in the family that can be exchanged for money. But because the house is too shabby, there is no buyer at present.

Looking at her father's melancholy eyes and thin face, Sheyan always has a sour feeling. On one occasion, She Yan took her father's hand, and before he could speak, tears came out: "Dad, I want to die ..."

Father looked at her with a pair of astonished eyes: "You are only 8 years old, why did you die?"

"I am a doll I found. Everyone says I'm a bitch and can't stand this disease. Let me leave the hospital ... "

On June 18, 8-year-old She Yan replaced her illiterate father and signed the medical record: "She Yan voluntarily gave up treatment."

The 8-year-old girl cleverly arranged the funeral.

After returning home that day, she Yan, who had never asked her father anything since she was a child, made two requests to her father: she wanted to wear a new dress and take another photo. She explained to her father, "I won't be here anymore." If you miss me, you can look at me in the photo. "

The next day, my father asked my aunt to accompany her to town. 30 yuan bought two sets of new clothes for She Yan. She Yan chose a set of pink short-sleeved shorts, and her aunt chose a skirt with red dots on a white background for her. She was reluctant to take it off when she tried it on. Three people came to the photo studio. She covered her new pink clothes, gestured with V-shaped hands, tried to laugh, and finally burst into tears.

She can't go to school anymore. She stood on the path in front of the village with her schoolbag on her back for a long time, and her eyes were always wet.

If it weren't for Yan Fu, a reporter from Chengdu Evening News, She Yan would have fallen quietly from the wind like a fallen leaf.

The reporter's aunt learned about the situation from the hospital and wrote a report detailing the story of She Yan. Immediately, the story of "eight-year-old girl cleverly arranged the funeral" spread in Chengdu Rongcheng, and was moved by the Internet. Countless citizens are heartbroken for this poor girl. From Chengdu to the whole country and even the whole world, the real world is connected with the internet space, and caring people from all walks of life begin to donate money for this weak life. "Harmonious society" has become the strongest voice in everyone's heart. In just 10 day, the global Chinese donation has exceeded 560,000 yuan, and the operation cost is enough. The fire of Xiao Sheyan's life was rekindled by everyone's love! After the fund-raising activities were announced, donations from all over the world continued to be received. All the money has been put in place, and the doctors have tried their best to overcome one treatment difficulty after another as they wish! Let's smile calmly and wait for the day of success! Some netizens wrote: "She Yan, my dear child! I hope you can leave the hospital healthily; I pray that you can go back to school smoothly; I hope you can grow up safely; I fantasize that I can marry you happily. Qian Yan, my dear child ... "

On June 2 1 day, She Yan, who gave up treatment and went home to die, was reconnected to Chengdu and admitted to the Children's Hospital. With money, the humble life has the hope and reason to continue.

She Yan received unbearable chemotherapy. Inside the glass door, she Yan was lying in the hospital bed for infusion. There is a chair beside the bed, and there is a plastic basin on the chair. She vomited to the side from time to time. The little girl's strength surprised everyone. Xu Ming, her attending doctor, said that during the chemotherapy stage, the gastrointestinal reaction was very strong. She Yan often vomited half a basin at first, but she didn't even say a word. A bone marrow puncture was performed at the time of admission, and the needle penetrated the sternum. She "didn't cry, didn't scream, didn't shed tears and didn't move."

From birth to death, she Yan did not get a trace of maternal love. When Dr. Xu Ming said, "She Yan, be my daughter!" When Sheyan's eyes lit up, Pearl burst into tears. The next day, when the doctor came to her bed, she cried shyly, "Mother Xu." Xu Ming paused for a moment, then smiled sweetly and replied, "My daughter is fine."

Everyone is looking forward to the miracle, and everyone is looking forward to the moment when she Yan is reborn. Many citizens came to the hospital to visit She Yan, and many netizens on the Internet greeted the poor child. Her life filled this strange world with light.

During that time, the ward was full of flowers and fruits, and the intoxicating smell was everywhere.

After two months of chemotherapy, she Yan has experienced nine "death gates" such as septic shock, septicemia, hemolysis and gastrointestinal bleeding ... every time. The chemotherapy plan determined by authoritative experts in children's hematology in the province and even the whole country has achieved good results, and "leukemia" itself has been completely controlled! Everyone is looking forward to the good news of She Yan's recovery.

However, the possible complications of using chemotherapy drugs are terrible. Compared with many other leukemia children, she Yan's physique is much worse. Her health deteriorated after the operation.

On the morning of August 20th, she asked Yan Fu, "Aunt, tell me why they donated money to me?"

"Because they are all good people."

"Aunt, I am also a kind person."

"You are a kind person by nature. Good people will become kinder if they help each other. "

He Yan took out a math exercise book from under the pillow and handed it to Yan Fu: "Aunt, this is my suicide note ..."

Yan Fu was surprised and hurriedly opened it. It was arranged by Sheyan. This is an 8-year-old dying child lying in a hospital bed and writing a three-page suicide note with a pencil. Because the child is too young, some words can't be written, and there are some typos. It can be seen that the whole article is not written in one breath, and it is divided into six paragraphs. It begins with "Aunt Yan Fu" and ends with "Goodbye, Aunt Yan Fu". The whole article "Auntie" or "Auntie Fu" appeared 7 times, and the reporter referred to it as "Auntie" 9 times. These 16 headlines are all about "please" after her death. She wants to express "thank you" and "goodbye" to people who care about her in the whole society through reporters.

"Aunt goodbye, we met in the dream. Aunt Yan Fu, my father's house is going to collapse. Dad, don't be angry. Don't jump. Aunt fu, you should watch my father. Aunt, give my money to our school. Thank you for telling the President of the Red Cross. After I die, give the rest of the money to those who are as sick as I am, and let them get better ... "

This suicide note made Yan Fu burst into tears.

I've been here. I am a good boy.

On August 22nd, She Yan, unable to eat due to gastrointestinal bleeding and supported by infusion for almost a month, "stole food" for the first time. She broke off a piece of instant noodles and stuffed it into her mouth. Soon the gastrointestinal bleeding worsened, and doctors and nurses gave her blood transfusion and infusion urgently ... Looking at She Yan's unbearable abdominal pain, doctors and nurses cried, and everyone was willing to help her share the pain. However, trying various methods is of no help.

She Yan, 8, finally got rid of the ravages of illness and left peacefully.

Everyone can't accept that this picturesque and pure "little fairy" really went to another world? Reporter Yan Fu stroked She Yan's gradually cold face, sobbing, and could no longer call him aunt or laugh out loud. ...

Websites such as Sichuan Online and Netease are immersed in the ocean of tears, and the Internet is soaked with tears, "I can't breathe with heartache". Every website has tens of thousands of posts, wreaths are like mountains, eulogies are like the sea, and a middle-aged man whispers, "Son, you are an angel in the sky. Open little wings and fly obediently ... "On August 26th, her funeral was held in a light rain, and tearful citizens stood inside and outside the funeral home cremation Hall in the eastern suburb of Chengdu. They are all "parents" that 8-year-old girl She Yan never knew. In order to make this girl who was abandoned at birth and gave up voluntarily after suffering from leukemia, she will not be too lonely when she finally leaves. "Mom and Dad" came silently from all directions to see me off in the rain.

There is a picture of her smiling in her grave, and the inscription reads: "I have been here, I am fine (1996.11.30). -22 August 2005) "

A brief introduction about She Yan's life is engraved on the back. The last two sentences are: "In her lifetime, she felt the warmth of the world. Rest in peace, little girl. Heaven is more beautiful with you. "

In accordance with She Yan's wishes, he left the remaining 540,000 yuan of medical expenses as a life gift to other children suffering from leukemia. The seven children are Yang Xinlin, Xu Li, Liu,,, and. These seven poor children, the oldest 19 years old, the youngest is only 2 years old. They are all poor children from very difficult families, struggling to die.

On September 24th, Xu Li, the first girl to receive a life gift from She Yan, had a successful operation at West China University of Medical Sciences. A smile hung on her pale face: "I accepted your life gift." Thank you, Sister She Yan. You must be watching us from heaven. Please rest assured that in the future, our tombstone will still be engraved with: I have been here, I am fine ... "

Let's push more people to express their love for their children like She Yan. Thank you! At the same time, I also hope that Yu Yan will be happy in heaven forever.

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