The valley I experienced

What you experienced is the most real. With the attitude of giving it a try, I took part in Mr. Yang's study course in August.

I used to watch insect sharing in my circle of friends, but I just wanted to eat at that time and couldn't stop. Until recently, I found myself overeating to a morbid level, and suddenly remembered to share the valley. I think it is a suitable opportunity to experience it.

Everyone is different, different people will do the same thing for different reasons, the process is different, and the natural result will be different. Teacher Yang said in the course: No matter what we do, the result depends entirely on ourselves.

So, I just want to share with you the real feelings I recorded when I broke through the valley. My thoughts and feelings at that time were written down.

20200825

The third day of study, the first day of formal study.

Last night, when I started the idea of crossing the valley, I asked. Teacher Yang's answer is very helpful. I really miss my parents and want to go back to them. As soon as I heard that I was going to sleep in the future, I thought of Mr. Yang. He would definitely let us sleep whenever we wanted, so we slept peacefully. Have a good sleep and get up at six in the morning to wash. There is no need to make breakfast or make up, so I am particularly relaxed in the morning. Going out to meditate, I didn't invest at first, worried about other people's eyes, and then I became more and more involved.

The biggest feeling is that the eyes no longer hurt. My eyes always hurt because I often can't sleep well. The spirit of going to work is also good. After work, go home to rest, set up stalls and meditate. I don't eat or drink all day, I don't really want to eat, and I don't do anything in my mouth. Listen to the teacher in the live class at night, as if everyone is going well. I also relax and continue to experience.

I'm going to sleep today, so sit still for a while before going to bed.

20200826

The fourth day of the first study, the second day of formal study.

Last night, my period was advanced. I asked the teacher this morning and said it wouldn't affect me. I felt weak at noon and my stomach ached a little, so I went downstairs to meditate and rested for an hour. I went back to the company and took a sip of water. I think my calf is hurt. I chewed two grapes at home at night, but I didn't swallow them and spit them out. He practices meditation, exchanges ideas, persuasions and guidance, and yuan dun JIU Shi. I feel much better. I don't feel hungry and thirsty. After listening to the evening self-study, get ready for bed. I didn't eat anything, so I felt lighter, slept better and my eyes didn't hurt.

20200827

The fifth day of the first study and the third day of formal study.

I thought of steamed bread before going to bed last night. When I was very hungry, I took the first bite of steamed bread, which was sweet and soft in my mouth. It's really soft and real. I wanted to take a bite, but I was not hungry. I just want to feel that again. When I remembered seeing the supervisor eating steamed bread in the morning, I recalled it for a while and was very satisfied. I also thought of mung bean porridge and red bean porridge. I made it myself, without sugar, and now I feel all the food is delicious.

I woke up this morning in a better spirit than yesterday, and my stomach didn't hurt, so I was relaxed. Different from the previous dysmenorrhea, I feel that my abdomen is falling and my stomach is swollen. Also, although I don't eat much or drink much, my period is as usual. He practices swallowing body fluids, exchanging ideas, sitting still, being persuaded and guided, and practicing meditation. After drinking three mouthfuls of hot water and five mouthfuls of honey water, I felt particularly satisfied and didn't feel hungry. I saw steamed bread on my way to work, bought one, smelled it twice, and it really smelled like a child. I was happy. Put the steamed bread back in the bag and continue to work.

Last night, in the self-study class, Teacher Yang replied to a student that forbearance is a passive behavior. If you volunteer. When I think of a certain food these days, I first feel that I want to eat it, but I don't want to eat as much as I usually do, and I'm not hungry, so I just think about it.

It takes more than half an hour to walk back from work, and the sun is particularly strong today. I came home a little tired and lay on the sofa. I feel dizzy when I get up. When I woke up, I found myself sitting on the ground. Sitting on the ground for a while, I ate six grapes and half a steamed sweet potato. Then I went to practice, and my spirit gradually improved, especially when I communicated with my heart.

I drank 100ml honey water after work and felt much better. Go out to meditate for an hour and come back to listen to the evening study. What Teacher Yang said today is particularly useful. No matter what we do, the final effect lies entirely in ourselves.

I still feel good today, and I am in a good mood and spirit.

20200828

The sixth day of the first study and the fourth day of formal study.

I woke up this morning in good spirits and mood. In fact, I didn't fall asleep last night and thought of things and people that made me unhappy, but I was calm and unaffected. I have thought about insomnia before. I am very tired in the morning and my eyes hurt. But I was not hungry or thirsty at all this morning. I ate three grapes after practice.

I thought about it on the way when I went out to work, as if I wanted something soft and sweet these days. I usually like to eat spicy food. No wonder my mood and temper have improved these days. I have more and more confidence in my figure.

Go to the garden next to the company to meditate at noon. I feel that I can slowly follow the rhythm that my body wants now. I ate a jujube and drank about 100ml pumpkin porridge and half a piece of whole wheat bread. But I feel that nothing I eat has reached my stomach, only my mouth, not even my throat. After four o'clock in the afternoon, I was particularly sleepy and my work was almost finished. I went down to meditate and sit still. I found the garden suitable and the environment beautiful. Just finished practicing, it rained heavily, which was super comfortable.

Going home a little late at night, I began to listen to evening self-study on the way. I drank 100ml honey water and half a piece of bread. I want to go to bed early after training. I feel sleepy today.

20200829

The seventh day of first study and the fifth day of formal study.

When I got up this morning, I really wanted to go out for a walk and meditate. The air is particularly fresh after the rain. These days, whether I am in good spirits or in poor spirits, I meditate slowly, which is the speed my body wants. I usually walk fast, and my friends say that my back looks like a boy. I think I must be a girl when I meditate and walk. When I came back from meditation, I continued to practice other skills. My body is very light, and there is a kind of dance that is gentle and powerful when I practice.

I took two sips of water, mixed with honey water, took one sip, and didn't want to drink any more. I ate three steamed sweet potatoes. I was in good spirits until noon. I didn't feel hungry or thirsty. I continue to practice kungfu, and I feel particularly comfortable, soft and powerful during the practice. Chew a jujube, spit it out after 72 times, and the body doesn't need it.

I was going to take a nap, but I couldn't sleep. I got up and began to clean up the house, feeling more and more energetic. I want to lose my temper today, but I don't want to endure it as before. I don't want to eat. I'm not hungry or thirsty. Finish your exercises early in the evening and lie in bed after class, hoping to calm yourself down. Sure enough, listening to the questions and answers from Teacher Yang and the students, my mood gradually improved. Listening to classes every day is really the most comfortable time.

20200830

The eighth day of first study and the sixth day of formal study.

I'm always awake at night these days, but I'm in good spirits, and I'm not tired if I don't sleep well in the morning. I felt bitter in my mouth this morning, so I took a bite and swallowed. After that, it won't be bitter in the mouth. Brush your teeth, simply wash your face, sit still and go out to meditate. I just want to be quiet today. I am not in tune for talk. I don't want people to talk to me. Rourou also said a similar problem in the morning class. The teacher said that the throat and body and mind are being repaired, and the ability to refuse others is also being repaired. That's great. I always hope that I can learn to refuse others instead of making myself uncomfortable every time. Rourou said that when I heard this sentence, I cried and felt particularly warm. Everyone heals each other, relying on teachers, relying on courses and relying on themselves.

Today, I am less and less worried about being hungry, and I don't want to eat anything in advance. I believe in my body and myself.

I was outside all Sunday today, and I didn't practice kung fu at noon. When I come back at night, I really want to sit still and don't want to move. Waiting for the evening self-study, I entered the conference room and found that it started at 7: 30 today. I thought it would be over soon, but I still heard a lot and felt the need. As before, I always feel much better after class.

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The ninth day of first study and the seventh day of formal study.

I woke up in good spirits this morning and slept well last night. The mouth is slightly dry and bitter, and it becomes sweet after swallowing body fluid. My body wants to go out to meditate. After a simple wash, take things to work and go out. Go outside, the air is fresh and the weather is cool. My heart is full of gratitude, grateful to my family, grateful to nature, grateful to teachers, teaching assistants and students, grateful to my body, and even the clothes and shoes I wear feel particularly comfortable. I want to thank them.

I like myself more and more, too. Simple and comfortable clothes are too inconsistent with my original intention, clean and light.

I thought I wouldn't eat anything on the last day today. As a result, I felt a little dizzy after meditation at noon. I wanted to eat, so I drank six mouthfuls of soybean milk. I tasted the orange and found it was not what I expected, so I spit it out.

In the evening, I followed the teacher and started the idea of eating again. The happiest thing is that I suddenly feel that I don't have to worry about my daughter's diet anymore. I always limit her, forget everything in her mind and let her eat whatever she wants. How happy she is, I feel relaxed in an instant.

Besides, I'm a little tired when I come back from work. I really want to eat bread. I took two bites, thinking about eating it tomorrow. I have to eat a whole one myself, and I'm afraid I can't eat it. Then, during the second interview, I heard the teacher say that our bodies are still repairing themselves. If we don't do well, it may hurt our health. I burped after eating two bites of bread, and my stomach swelled. Finally, I began to retch. I vomited two or three times and felt comfortable. Then I didn't want to eat anything, just wanted to eat. Don't think about it, leave it to tomorrow and give it to your body.

In class at night, Ye asked a question. It is very important that the height of the dining chair we usually eat is appropriate, so as to ensure that our legs can be laid flat and not suspended. Remember, you should follow this standard when buying dining chairs for your family.

Today, Teacher Yang also said two words that he liked very much, and recorded them: People who don't know what they want are all people who have sold their souls.

The road is at your own feet, and no one can stop you from going where you want to go.

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The first day of study in the valley 10, and the second day of eating 1 day.

I woke up in a very good spirit this morning, and I don't want to eat anything I wanted last night today. The biggest change is the slow eating speed, and I am in good working condition today. I want to eat soybean milk fritters on the way to work, forget the idea that I can't eat unhealthy food before, satisfy my body, and feel super delicious and satisfied when I eat it. When I was full, my body immediately noticed and stopped. I really want to eat tomatoes, scrambled eggs and rice at noon. Because I didn't go out to eat at work and worried about the waste of steamed sweet potatoes I brought in the morning, I ate cold sweet potatoes. As a result, I have been burping and my stomach has been uncomfortable.

When I asked the teacher in the evening self-study, I was told by the teacher that I didn't eat what my body wanted. Eating again is really a new process of learning and practice, so study hard.

This time, it is a physical and mental learning process. The teacher talked about all aspects, and his influence was not only on his body and diet. Be grateful and continue to learn.

The whole Bigu period ended well today, and eating resumed. But for me, it is still going on, just beginning, and the real learning is in practice, every day.