Chapter 12 of the novel "Love"

Chapter 12 It’s a cool autumn day

Li Wei got married and Zhang Ye was pregnant. Zhang Ye insisted on taking a vacation until the summer vacation. Although this was not in compliance with the regulations, based on China's national conditions, in such a society that pays attention to human relations, this matter is just a piece of cake. Who can let others have connections? Where's the money? During the summer vacation, Cheng Yuan's father used his connections to successfully transfer Li Wei to a primary school in the county.

Qiang Yue also started a blind date. The past must pass after all, and people cannot live in memories. Every time he goes on a blind date, he always behaves well. This world is also strange. Many girls find it cool if a man is slovenly. But, of course, coolness cannot be used as food or clothing. Once associated with family, cool becomes a decoration. "Love comes to the poor in passing" has been proven time and time again. Qiang Yue's heart was stung again. The pain of the past is still vivid in my mind. However, he couldn't accept Qiu Xiaoya. He often thought about Zhang Ye, which was unfair to Qiu Xiaoya.

Like Qiang Yue, Qiu Xiaoya also started her journey of blind date. Qiangyue has already been planted in Qiu Xiaoya's heart. But she didn't dare to think about it, didn't dare to ask, didn't dare to ask. However, he thinks about Qiangyue all the time. During the blind date, she deliberately wore some old-fashioned, darker-colored clothes. She deliberately wore bare-faced sneakers to make her look shorter and fatter. Some of her hair was loosely fluffed around her ears. . Just like a sloppy little fat girl. How important the first impression is! I went on blind dates again and again and was rejected again and again. Although this was exactly what I expected, sometimes I still felt a little bit unwilling. Sometimes, I wonder if the reason for Qiangyue besides Zhang Ye is that he also thinks he is ugly and fat! So, when they went on a blind date again, she dressed up well and put on light makeup. As a result, he was chosen by the other party, but he chose to reject it.

Zhang Ye and Li Wei's seats were replaced by two male teachers in their thirties. They often asked Qiang Yue to play table tennis in their spare time. Qiu Xiaoya often invites her female colleagues in the office to watch the fun, and sometimes they have a small competition, and whoever loses treats everyone to some melon seeds. Gradually, only Qiang Yue and Qiu Xiaoya were left playing. They continue as long as the weather permits.

The orange ball connected them. Qiu Xiaoya's heart was filled with happiness and sadness. Last autumn, Qiang Yue and Zhang Ye were here. Now, now, can Qiang Yue not think of the past? She smiled happily, occasionally feeling a little melancholy. At night, she fell asleep amidst happiness and sorrow, and the vague shadow of Zhang Ye often appeared in her sleep. Under Qiang Yue's guidance, her skills are improving day by day. Qiang Yue also smiled happily. But she always felt that the laughter was a little bit impure, lacking the joy that came from the heart. Who knows? Maybe Qiangyue was not what he thought, and it was just because of his worries that everything was cast a little melancholy! Sunshine, let your heart be filled with sunshine, stop thinking about Zhang Ye, stop thinking about it! However, as soon as he plays ball, Zhang Ye's shadow will appear. what to do? Another way? As long as he doesn't play ball, will Qiang Yue never think of Zhang Ye again? What a ridiculous idea! No, I want to fight him. I believe that one day, on the other side of the ball table, all he sees is Qiu Xiaoya! I can't lose heart, and I can't give up!

Qiang Yue admired Qiu Xiaoya day by day. "Maybe," he said to himself, "I can fall in love with her like I love Zhang Ye." He was very distressed that the way Qiu Xiaoya chose to be with him turned out to be playing table tennis! Seeing things and thinking about people made him often think about Zhang Ye. Sometimes, he really regarded Qiu Xiaoya opposite as Zhang Ye, as if he had returned to that beautiful time. Several times, he almost said what he often said to Zhang Ye when he was playing: "Zhang has to pay attention to the rules when playing!" Fortunately, he could always say it in time when he opened his mouth. The words swallowed back. But his smile was sincere, whether it was for Qiu Xiaoya or Zhang Ye, his smile was sincere, never forced or adulterated. He thought about changing to another way of exercising together, such as playing badminton. But he didn't dare to speak. He knew that as soon as he said it, Qiu Xiaoya would guess and think that when he was with her, he was thinking about Zhang Ye. Actually, that's not entirely the case. But how much harm would it cause her. Under her carefree appearance, there is such a sensitive heart!

It was another sunny afternoon, and the two of them were sweating slightly from playing. Qiu Xiaoya stopped, and instead of handing the racket to Qiang Yue's hand as usual, she leaned against the ball table, and Qiang Yue also came over. The two of them were silent, looking forward, as if each other didn't exist. Qiang Yue knew that Qiu Xiaoya had something to say, but he didn't dare to ask.

It’s autumn again, time flies so fast! Things are different and people are different. Zhang Ye next to him has now become Qiu Xiaoya.

"Qiangyue." Qiu Xiaoya broke the silence.

"Yeah."

"I don't know what to say."

"Then don't say it."

" However, I think I still have something to say. "

"Let's talk about it!" Qiang Yue knew that he had to bring up these two words, otherwise Qiu Xiaoya's words would be wrong. Can't tell.

"Zhang Ye is living a good life, can't you see? She is going to be a mother soon.

"Qiu Xiaoya turned her head and stared at Qiang Yue. After saying that, she looked forward again.

"So, I want to let her go and start my new life, right? "

"You lied. "Qiu Xiaoya replied hastily. There was a little bit of anger, a little bit of discomfort, and there were tears in her eyes.

"Indeed, I often think of her. You know, it's really hard to forget someone. It's very difficult. "

"I think, I think..."

"Xiaoya, stop talking. Believe that one day, you will definitely take root in my heart, I will fall in love with you completely, and you will become unique in my world. ”

“But, I don’t want to be anyone’s shadow. "

"No, absolutely not. Therefore, we need time, you have to forget, and I have to forget, so that we can be worthy of our love, our love. ”

“How long will it take?” How long do we have to wait? ”

“I don’t know, but I believe there will be one day.” "

"How long was that? ”

“It won’t take long, but you have to be obedient and you have to try hard to forget. Me too, let’s work together.” "

From then on, their relationship became more calm and intimate. When faced with Qiu Xiaoya's messed up hair, Qiang Yue would tidy it up unconsciously, unlike before where he just told her. Qiu Xiaoya would stretch the wrinkled corners of Qiang Yue's clothes. This intimacy revealed their hearts, and their colleagues started to joke around.

< p> Ding Yifan has also become colorful like this autumn. Although black, white and gray are still her main colors, fiery red, orange, light blue and lake green have begun to enter her life. She listens to music and spends time with her colleagues. Laughing, dancing in the square, playing ball... She has changed. She is no longer just a quiet shadow who works hard, she is alive. Her face also has an unprecedented luster, rosy and healthy, and everyone feels that she is getting better and better. More and more beautiful. The coldness and arrogance gradually faded away, and the elegance gradually revealed the charm.

People always say that love in youth is vigorous, but love in middle age is more charming. When they first got married, they were both willful and proud. Before they could get along well, a new life was born, so complaints and quarrels were inevitable in the endless busy life. High, when it enters the mouth, it is a kind of hot and manic. When people are middle-aged, because their children are not around for study, they have a lot of time to light a few candles, pour two glasses of red wine, and the two of them are just quiet. Sitting quietly, talking about those past years, talking about the children, talking about the future, talking about my own mood, and talking about the accumulated love. There is no need to think about how late the time is, and there is no need to think about the children and how many questions they have. If it's not finished, you don't have to worry about the child coming over and making noise, just the two of you can enjoy each other quietly for a while, and you don't have to worry about affecting the child's vision... So, middle-aged people. Love is more like an aged wine, with a soft taste and a long aftertaste. However, all this does not conflict with her strength. On the contrary, she is more efficient at her work and seems to be thinking more quickly when writing papers. . If life was a straight line before, now, this straight line has a beautiful curve.

Zhang Ye's life is rich and lonely. She can't go anywhere now. Zhang Ye's mother-in-law was extremely happy that her mother-in-law and father-in-law did not live with her. She hired an experienced nanny to take care of her daily life. There were countless soups and supplements. Zhang Ye blew up like a balloon, and now he understood what it means to have a big face. Elephant legs, steamed bun hands, and bread feet, but I have to keep eating. The food now is not for myself, but for the child in my belly. This lonely life makes the nanny who is forty this year envious. She is many years old, her daughter is married, and she has a son who is in his third year of college. Her husband is a bricklayer, and she has worked with him on the construction site for so many years. Now that she is older, women are not as good as men. She took the exam four years ago. I got a nanny certificate. Because she is a down-to-earth person and does things meticulously, she has more work to do. Sen now leaves early and comes home late, so they are the only ones who talk at home. Zhang Ye called her Sister Du.

"Sister Du, do you miss home?"

"There is no one at home, why would I want to do that?"

"Then you don't want to "My brother?"

"Isn't this a two-day break a month? Besides, he won't necessarily have a holiday when I go back. It's better not to stay in a cold room and tidy up all day long. Go back!"

"Then you don't want to be affectionate with my brother?"

"Oh, you are in your forties, and you don't have the heart or energy. Hey! You little girl, what are you thinking about?"

"Hehehe..." Zhang Ye smiled and took a bite of the apple.

A little after eleven o'clock in the evening, Sen came back, smelling of alcohol. Sister Du poured him a glass of water and went to her room. She knew that if she dared to ask one more question, Sen would yell again.

Lying on the bed, Sister Du couldn't sleep.

Yes, homesick? Can you not want to? No matter how nice it is outside, it is not your home after all. Do you miss the old man? It would be weird not to think about it. It has not been easy for the two of us for so many years. We have suffered so much through wind and rain and suffered so much! For money and for their son to go to college, the couple wandered around all day long. In order to double my salary during holidays, I often stay at my employer's house. And masons are not fake. The old man built one building after another with a bundle of bed rolls and so many migrant workers. More than ten years have passed, but he has not been able to live in one. What can be done? Who makes us farmers? The old man was right, the money was well spent. This year during the New Year shopping mall event, I will buy a laptop for my son. Save money, there will be many places to use it in the future! Finding a job or getting married is impossible without money. I can't buy a car or a house, so I just hope that a girl from a family won't dislike me and is willing to be my daughter-in-law. I will treat them well in the future.

Sen drank a glass of water and became more awake. In fact, he didn't drink too much, it was just a mental effect. Ever since Zhang Ye became pregnant, her mother would never let Sen touch Zhang Ye again. Sen is very obedient for the sake of his children. One day, he knelt in front of the bed, touched Zhang Ye's swollen belly with his hand, and joked: "You, this little enemy, have made your father miserable!" Zhang Ye stretched out his hand and stroked his hair. , as if he was really a sinner. She made up her mind and spoke.

"How about you find a young lady?" Zhang Ye's tone was tentative.

Sen stood up slowly, his eyes burning. His two hands firmly pressed Zhang Ye's shoulders. Zhang Ye felt a kind of pain, and a trace of sadness flashed through Sen's eyes. Then, he swayed, stepped back step by step, sat down on the ground, covered his face with his hands, and burst into tears.

Zhang Ye was frightened and didn't know what to do. But she knew her words hurt him. She got out of bed and knelt next to Sen. She couldn't squat down due to her big belly. She hugged Sen's head, stroked his hair, and kept saying: "I was wrong, wrong."

The crying turned into choked sobs and finally stopped. Sen raised his head, his eyes showed grievance, sadness, sadness, and the shame of being ridiculed.

"I thought you would fall in love with me and forget about him."

Zhang Ye was so chilling that he didn't need to explain who he was.

"If it were him, would you also allow him to find a young lady?"

"Sen, that's not the case. I really feel uncomfortable with you, really. ”

“Does it mean that all men in the world have to find young ladies when their wives are pregnant? How much have I changed for you? Can’t I see that you are really fucking blind? I have broken off relationships with all women. I have tried my best to quit drinking and quit smoking. I have tried my best to do whatever you want from me, but you are still thinking about him in your heart!"

"Sen, it's not like this, it's not like this..."

"You don't have to explain, when a woman is willing to let other women share her man, and she doesn't care, It just means that this man doesn't hold enough weight in her heart!"

Sen walked away. He didn't go home that night, but besides drinking, he didn't have any relationships with any women. From that night on, tobacco and alcohol became his friends again. But he never messed with a woman again. Tonight, he went to drink because he thought about Qiangyue again. He could also understand that Zhang Ye was sincere to him now, but there was always a little bit of unhappiness in his heart. Only then did he choose to drink. After drinking it, I regretted it. During this period of time, he really had to drink more often. He had to restrain himself for the sake of Zhang Ye and his children.

Time is the best medicine for healing. Time passed day by day, and the unhappiness between Zhang Ye and Sen came to an end. Now, the relationship between the two is excellent.

Compared with Zhang Ye's life, Li Wei is relatively free. She was also pregnant and was three months pregnant when she got married in April, which was related to that trip. Cheng Yuan picks her up from get off work every day by car. Because of Cheng Yuan's father's relationship, Li Wei taught first-grade art in primary school, with only eight classes a week. Although the other teachers felt very unhappy, they dared not speak out.

Xin Yitian’s illness is under treatment. The school spent some money, and Principal Mu mobilized teachers and students to raise funds. Coupled with the basic salary that Xin Yitian temporarily received every month, the treatment was able to be maintained for a period of time. Everyone hopes Xin Yitian gets better soon, including Li Wei. Although she couldn't look at him, she couldn't call the school teacher to ask.

Another leaf fell. There are almost no leaves on the tree. It is late autumn.