I want to know what people think of girls who have had abortions.

The girl miscarried at the end of April, unexpectedly came out to work and missed the bus on the same day, and then stayed at the hotel and found that he also stayed at that hotel. Then I went to eat mala Tang that day, probably because I didn't eat for a long time and my stomach hurt. I live on the second floor, he lives on the seventh floor, and then he comes down to take care of me. My stomach is better. I fell asleep. Then his friend invited him out for a drink. After drinking, he came back. He came to take care of me again. He was drunk at that time, and then he wanted to make me very moved, so he gave it to him once and got pregnant. I don't know. I want to take birth control pills. At that time, the whole person was in chaos, and then the long-distance relationship broke up after a month, and the contact information was deleted. I found out I was pregnant, so I went to add him. He has a girlfriend again. Then I gave up. I told him that I wanted to get rid of my vacation and go back to see him. He begged me not to abort the baby, and I was afraid of abortion. He and his parents have also said that they have been thinking about it for a long time, and his friends have been persuading me. Then I agreed and came to Guangzhou with him. He's not nice to me at all. I have severe morning sickness. I throw up whatever I eat. When I smell meat, I want to vomit. I came to Guangzhou and found out that I was their nanny. He came to share the room with his friends and me. I have to take care of their daily life. The most important thing is that he has been very cold to me, and slowly began to scold me and then quarreled. In the meantime, I once went to find my girlfriend, and she begged me to come back and said that she had written a letter of guarantee. WeChat promised me a lot, and then I went back. It was fine at first, but it's still the same, getting worse and worse. When I came back from work, I was just holding my mobile phone when a colleague called. She often goes out to ktv at night and turns on the air conditioner when she comes back until one or two. I feel sick when I smell the air conditioner. I never care about my feelings. For the next few days, I couldn't even unlock his cell phone. He blocked my circle of friends. I can't see anything. Then I found out that the girlfriend he made after breaking up with me also came to us to find him. I really can't stand it. Then I said I was going to kill him and told me to leave him alone. I asked him what he promised me on WeChat when he went to his girlfriend's place. He said he didn't send it to me, and then I told him on WeChat that he would come out with the abortion money, and then he didn't have to tell me later that you used up all my money and now you want the abortion money from me because his mother gave me 2000 yuan when he came out, and then he still had some money on him, and I still had some money on me, but the renter spent that money. I left a pair of shoes in the hotel at that time, so I wore a pair of slippers to the end. I don't even want to buy a pair of shoes because money is tight. It took me a lot of courage to really dare to give birth to this child. So after coming to Guangzhou, although he was very bad to me, I forgave him, but I really can't stand him doing this. I borrowed all the money for the abortion myself, and his parents didn't give me a penny. Because it is 70 days old, I borrowed more than 3,000 from my friends. At that time, it was risky to go to the hospital for abortion. It's really anesthesia, so you don't know anything When I moved out of the hospital step by step, I felt dizzy, so I wanted to do it. Like a dream, the baby disappeared, and then at night, he sent me a WeChat saying that I would leave after the phone call, and I would leave you alone. That night, I found a friend and got a job, and then the next day, I left with my luggage. I saw him holding a girl's hand in a circle of friends the next night, and now he has really changed a lot. I dare not tell my family and friends because I am afraid they will be disgusted. I have a sense of rejection for boys, or I have a sense of rejection for everyone now. My friend told me that I had to take a break before going to work, but if I didn't go to work, I couldn't pay it back. During those days with him, I cried, and there was no sound at all. I know my decision is correct, but when I am alone in one place now, I really miss my baby. I always feel that the baby is with me now, and then every time I see Baidu saying that girl abortion is a second-hand house where people are dead, I don't know why it is sent out.