I have always liked you; I also like some people when they are like you once in a while.

I like you, at any time, I like some people, when they are like you occasionally.

? -One ...

Over the years, I lost a lot of things, such as wallets, mobile phones, all kinds of reports of loss, and even how many times I accidentally lost myself on the road of growing up. But I can't lose the Zippo I've been carrying since 2007.

Because every time I play, a girl will lie next to me and ask me to show her some moves, but every time I don't play well, I always get her applause. If there are many people, she will hold me tightly. If there is no one, she will kiss my face and say, come on, give you an encouragement of love.

? -Two-

"I'm so scared." The voice is trembling, but it is still beautiful.

In the second year of high school, I came back from outside after midnight snack and climbed over the wall. Passing by the playground, I met Chen Rui, who was squatting on the edge of the goal door frame and sobbing in a low voice. It was the day after Christmas. It's so cold that no one wants to go out. The sky was dark. I was in a hurry to pee near the goal. I habitually took out zippo to light a cigarette, but then I saw Chen crouching in front of the goal, shivering with cold.

Maybe she saw the light, and she slowly raised her head, and pear blossoms brought rain.

"Classmate, what's wrong with you?" I walked over and looked at her little face.

"I'm so scared!" This is the first sentence that Chen Rui told me.

"Hurry back to the dormitory to sleep. It's freezing. " I don't know how to comfort, so I just want to persuade it to end soon.

"Would you like to walk back with me?" She is not polite at all. Naturally, this was my intention, so I quickly agreed.

On the way, I learned that my classmate's name is Wang. She is a girl at my level. She just broke up with her first boyfriend who was studying in Shanghai, but she couldn't figure it out. She walked in most fun run playgrounds and cried alone. The reason is that she has always been a strong girl in front of her roommates, so she had to vent secretly in the playground while no one was there, but she was afraid to cry.

After that night, I didn't know whether it was fate or providence, so I began to meet Chen Rui casually anywhere in our college. Every time we meet, she will smile and say to me: Hey! Take your zippo out to play. Then I trotted away from my roommate and came to my side. Always forget what she is going to do and follow me around.

"Thank you." She would say these three words to me every time we were apart.

I boast that I am naturally handsome, but I also have a fatal weakness. Whenever I am tempted, I can act like a man. When I want to talk to the other person, I stammer and can't say a word.

My chat with Chen Rui usually comes to an abrupt end after several "hmm", "ah", "ok" and "you're welcome".

Every time she is so embarrassed, she will smile and say, take your zippo out to play. Then I lay on my chin and watched the performance I was not familiar with carefully.

-Three ...

Three months later, a friend of a gentleman is as light as water. After the winter vacation, I went back to school. Even at home, I chat by SMS every day, pay close attention to each other's school dynamics and comment occasionally, but I just stay outside my heart and wander again.

Not long after I went back to school, I caught a cold and had a fever. I fell asleep after drinking several packs of medicine at night. I was awakened in my sleep by the sound of my roommate watching a play. I vaguely heard a girl sobbing in a low voice and saying, "I'm so scared." When I was half asleep and half awake, the first thing that came to my mind was that Chen Rui was crying on the playground again, so I had to rush over to comfort her.

I got up in a daze and found it was already dark. I looked at the time. It was seven forty. I thought that Chen Rui wouldn't go to the playground to cry at this time. She said that she was so strong and proud, how could she go to the playground to cry at this time? But I still crustily skin of head went to the playground. Looking down from the podium, there really is Chen Rui. I ran down the stairs and jumped off the playground. When I approached, it was Chen Rui. I gasped, excited and excited: "You are really on the playground, so let's go together?"

"Did you come to see me on purpose?" Chen Rui seems a little excited to ask.

"hmm." I nodded, afraid to look at her.

"Thank you." She plunged in and grabbed my arm.

It took me half a minute to react, and Chen Rui grabbed my arm. Although I am experienced, I can't hide my inner excitement at this time. It feels like being held by a girl for the first time, and my mind suddenly went blank, so I was so nervous that I stood still.

"Let's go." She whispered, hugged me in the dark and circled the runway.

It was windy that night, and it rained in Mao Mao. It's almost April, and the weather in Xiamen is still a little cold. I protected Chen Rui and Chen Rui hugged me. I don't want to leave. Later, Chen Rui said that she was tired and wanted to have a rest. Then she hugged me and kissed me. I was dumbfounded for a long time and couldn't speak. I really want to kiss her back, but I can't see the romantic power.

Later, we went out to eat a bowl of hot noodle soup, but we felt sorry for everything and didn't respond well! I was haunted by that little idea all night. But also in the future for a period of time, can't find the right opportunity.

Soon after, Chen Rui naturally became my girlfriend. On the night of Tomb-Sweeping Day's holiday, I said, Chen Rui, let's formally confirm our relationship.

"Very good." She doesn't think.

four

My love with Chen Rui is not quite like other lovers in college. On the contrary, after we confirmed our relationship, we were not inseparable as before. She always told me to play whenever she wanted, and every time I got her permission, I stayed up all night with those brothers.

Chen Rui's ideal is to take the postgraduate entrance examination and plunge into the library from morning till night. I am an idle person. When I was a junior, I began to rent a house outside the school, worked as a dealer of some big brands in Taobao Tmall Mall, earned some commission, and then often went to bars with my brothers to sing and drink and stay up late.

However, I play for fun, and my care and love for Chen Rui is undiminished. I swear silently in my heart every day that I will spend my whole life with Chen Rui, which is very serious and hard. But because I am very serious, some concerns will inevitably come to mind.

I will graduate soon, and my family always reminds me that it's time to go home, but I really like Xiamen University in my heart and want to live in this place with Chen Rui all the time. I have sounded out Chen Rui many times and learned that she will leave with me, but I can also feel a strong desire to stay.

However, I have to face such a problem. If I want to give Chen Rui a future in a big city, I must admit that it is not easy to be confident like me. Xiamen's housing prices keep growing rapidly every year, and the employment treatment of graduates of our major is pitifully low among seniors. Although the facade of our home in a small county is ok, I know very well that my parents are supporting us to live a good life. There is no way to provide me with extra support in Xiamen.

Poverty made our love look sad from the beginning.

Once I went shopping with Chen Rui, she took a fancy to a skirt of ZARA, tried on different sizes over and over again, and let me take many photos. Therefore, the price tag is huge. 699, feel the crumpled 400 pieces in your pocket, feeling inferior and uncomfortable.

Chen Rui saw my loss, held my hand, swaggered out and said with a smile, "What's the matter? This skirt is worth 200 yuan at most. Not bad-looking, and ordinary to wear! It's not appropriate at all. When you make a lot of money in the future, buy me a lot of skirts that are more expensive than it. "

"This is a must. You have to buy a lot. " I smiled and nodded.

Once I accompanied Chen Rui to an interview. The company was in Jialianli villa area, and then I passed by a restaurant called Yuzhi Sushi, which looked quite advanced. I want to go in and celebrate her success in the interview. After sitting down, I looked at the price on the menu. Finally, she only ordered a plate of salmon fillets and a vegetable salad. I really want to encourage her to cook more. But subconsciously, I reached into my trouser pocket, secretly counted a few dollars under the table and swallowed my words.

Chen Rui has always said that she doesn't like cooking very much, but a plate of sashimi is really too few. Moreover, at last she stuck out her tongue and licked her mouth, and knew how much she liked it. This matter has been buried in my heart for many years, like a thorn that can't be pulled out. Until now, as long as I touch it, it hurts all the time.

But I know very well in my heart that even if I had money, she wouldn't order it. She has always been considerate of me. I remember once, on her birthday, I told her that she had a delicious meal. At that time, the food expenses had just arrived, which was relatively abundant. I ordered a lot of things voluntarily. I was carried by her for a long time after I went out.

I'm a little male chauvinist, but I'm pretentious. I have to pay the bill when I go out, so Chen Rui naturally deprived me of the right to order food, lest I have food to save face.

But the days without money are really humbled. At that time, my goal was to make a lot of money. Take Chen Rui to eat your favorite flowers, buy your favorite things, and it is best to have the best satisfaction from Xiamen University to anus.

-Wu-

I remember a thorn. After drinking too much, I asked Chen Rui, "I sometimes feel so poor and depressed. How can you have a crush on me? "

"I just have a special taste." She answered with a smile.

Chen Rui and I have been to Gulangyu Island. In the graveyard, God said that if we change our faces, it will change our faces. Dark clouds are gathering, and then there is a storm. We quickly hid in a nearby octagonal pavilion, as if it was late at night and we couldn't see anything around. The wind rustled the leaves around us. It's terrible. Chen Rui hugged me tightly and kept shouting "I'm so scared". I subconsciously took out zippo and lit it. I saw a spark.

After the rain stopped, we left there. When passing by Zhang Sanfeng milk tea, I bought a cup of hot ginger milk tea for Chen Rui, hoping that drinking it would relieve the cold.

"Little N, why are you so good to me?" Chen Rui is drinking hot ginger milk tea with tears in her eyes.

"If the whole world is hostile to you, I will be nice to you." I can't help answering.

"Remember the last time you asked me why I had a crush on you, and I didn't answer well. Do you want to hear it now? " She thought about it and asked seriously.

"Of course I want to." I nodded.

"Every time it gets dark, you can always take out your zippo and light it; When you are not by my side, I can always wait for you to come to me; Every time I feel thirsty when I go out with you, you can always hand me a bottle of water, as if it were magic in your hand; As long as you feel cold, you can drink a cup of hot ginger milk tea every time. You lit the spark of zippo. It's really warm. I just fell in love with such warmth, and you gave me warmth. " She cried and laughed when she finished speaking.

"You are my girlfriend, aren't these all I should do?" I asked with a smile.

Chen Rui didn't answer me, but looked at me for a long time with a tearful smile.

"Little N, after graduation, I want to marry you immediately." She blurted out.

-Lou-

On April 20 1 1 year, I decided to find a job as a freight forwarder without taking the make-up exam. I rented a small room on the island for convenience.

Although Chen Rui also worked as an intern on the island, she still hurried back to school after work. As I have just arrived in the company, it is very hard and I have a lot to learn. I was trapped in the distress of how to do a good job, while Chen Rui was busy preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination while working. We can't live without each other. Good morning, good noon and good evening.

Although it feels nothing, some things always change inadvertently.

I have always been a proud person, proud that there are countless possibilities in the future. After graduation, I finally understand that when you finally face it, you can only choose one.

I am willing to work hard. Go to work during the day and go back to the rental house at night to open an online shop. I don't feel tired when I go to work all night, but I'm not willing to be a zombie walking on the road and looking for customers in various office buildings every day. Although I am conceited and don't want to fight all my life, I am just the "elite" of a company.

The city is full of traffic. Even though I am eager to take root here, I don't feel that I belong here.

There was a time when I was very bad-tempered, negative, confused and full of negative energy. I go home every night staring at the ceiling. I am inexplicably afraid that I will be like this all my life. I'm afraid I'll leave with Chen Rui because I have nothing to do. I don't know what I like at last, and I don't know where my future is. Then I can only live like this, there is no exit.

One night, I was busy doing activities for the online shop, but I didn't get a call from Chen Rui in a hurry to decorate it.

When I called Chen Rui back and forth, it was already 1 in the morning.

Chen Rui who answered the phone asked, "Little N, what are you doing?"

"Nothing." I answered unconsciously.

"Oh." She paused over there and then hung up.

After that, I regretted it very much, but my heart was really weak. I don't know whether I should call back and apologize to Chen Rui. After work, I sat in front of the French window and stared at the traffic on the road. My clenched mobile phone shook. It was a long message from Chen Rui, and my eyes were in a trance. I didn't make it clear at first. I just thought it would be a break-up message or something, and I was very scared. My hand kept shaking and my mobile phone almost fell to the ground.

Chen Rui said, "Little N, I'm sorry, I've been busy with my work and postgraduate entrance examination. I am not considerate enough. I must be very tired from work. "

I looked down word by word, and the tension in my heart turned into emotion bit by bit.

"Little N, as long as you never want to abandon me, you never have to worry that I will want to leave you one day."

I stared at the last line, and my eyes were instantly wet. I don't think Chen Rui will ever know that in the darkest days of my life, she gave me more warmth than I gave her in her mouth.

That night, I decided to be willful. I hurried downstairs and took a taxi to school. On the way, I was worried that she would go to bed first and kept talking to her until I stood downstairs in her dormitory and called her.

"I'm downstairs in your dormitory, come down? I really want to see you. " I said on the phone.

"I'll be right down." Received a phone call Chen Rui paused and said.

The two of us were downstairs in the dormitory, hugging and crying together.

? seven

Maybe it's fate, maybe it's fate. After half a year, Chen Rui failed to enter the ideal school. After some hesitation, she decided not to take the exam and looked for another job for a long time.

Because Chen Rui got excellent grades at school and passed all the necessary certificates, she found a good job as a ship owner with a good salary.

Chen Rui found a good job and soon moved to the island from school to live with me. She lives just near her work, and it takes fifteen minutes to walk to the company.

In this way, from an ordinary university couple in this city to an unknown migrant couple in this vast sea of people. Chen Rui and I started a hard-working "little couple" life.

Even if we all start working, she is well paid, but the income in this high-consumption city is really just a drop in the bucket.

Poverty made our love enter another bitter stage after graduation.

At most, it is a building partition room of 20 square meters, which is small and humid. When it rains, the water on the ground will never dry. But fortunately, everything is complete. Two people can live together and feel very happy.

"I really feel sorry for you. Nothing can make you live a better life after work than reading. " Because Chen Rui moved in, we rearranged it again. When it was finished, I hugged Chen Rui and said.

"It doesn't matter, I can fall asleep with you in my arms, and I will feel happy no matter how hard I suffer."

Her voice is warm, and so is my heart. In my heart, I silently vowed to be a warmer man than she expected in her heart.

At that time, they were afraid to go shopping on weekends, so they went to the supermarket downstairs to buy some snacks and stayed on the sofa in their room to watch the program all day. The most extravagant two days of each month are the first day of salary. I take Chen Rui downstairs to Shangdao Coffee for steak. Another time, one day before and after Chen Rui's period, she went to her shopping cart and bought a dress that she browsed repeatedly.

Chen Rui told me every time she spoiled: "When I have dysmenorrhea, I will open Taobao to see the logistics information, which is warmer than the zippo you ordered."

"Anyway, I will do this every time in the future, and it has always been like this." I said with a smile.

Chen Rui hugged me and patted her belly and said, "Look, it doesn't hurt at all."

eight

In fact, we all know that the love between two people can't be smooth sailing, there will always be some storms.

Half a year later, I started my own business, and I became a full-time employee of the company. In order to better develop and maintain customers, besides working hard, I have to go out and socialize hard, and often touch the door into the room after getting drunk in the middle of the night.

I am too busy to take care of Chen Rui as before, and sometimes I even ignore her. I often go home when she is asleep, she goes to work, and I am still sleeping, unlike before when I said good morning and good night.

Sometimes, when I touch the room, I will be sad to see Chen Rui. Although the light is off, she is not sleeping, but curled up on the sofa staring at the door in a daze. But I always comfort myself that I will get better soon.

Slowly, Chen Rui and I will get angry, have a cold war, and even quarrel like other couples. Sometimes I regret it, but I don't know what to do. I have always been a person who is not very good at admitting mistakes, and I always feel that things are not as serious as apologizing.

Later, I found that apologizing was really not as useful as I thought.

It doesn't work to apologize every time. She deliberately sleeps at a distance from me at night and won't let me hug her. And I always feel that she is asleep, so I gently move over, hug her from behind and whisper in her ear, "I'm sorry."

Once I had just finished, Chen Rui suddenly rolled over and hugged me, sobbing in my arms, much like the night I met her.

"Small n, you're right. I really heard it. I understand you and don't blame you at all. "

"I didn't take good care of you."

I don't know what else to do except hold her tight.

I didn't sleep that night. After hearing Chen Rui's steady breathing, I got up and went to the small balcony of my room, and smoked silently all night. I thought about quitting my job, and naturally I thought about leaving Xiamen. I always bite my teeth when I see the horizon turn white. Quitting and leaving won't change anything. I don't want to give up so early.

When I woke up in the morning, I said to Chen Rui, "Can you wait for me? When I save enough money, I will go back to Hainan to open a theme inn. I will redecorate the old inn at home, decorate the first floor with various themes that you once wanted to live with me, make it look like you like, and then I will have a dog. You are responsible for the front desk reception, and I am responsible for the management, so that my family and I can live a happy life. In my spare time, I travel around, record the rooms worth staying in and our sweet moments, and then complete our inn little by little. "

"You go out, I am in charge of management, and you stay at the front desk honestly."

She finally smiled, as beautiful as the red sky in the sunset.

? nine

Another time, Chen Rui and I went to Gulangyu to play. The weather was not good when we wandered around the beach. Suddenly it began to rain cats and dogs. It was so dark that we couldn't see around. We hid in an octagonal pavilion nearby. At the moment I lit zippo, Chen Rui suddenly hugged me again, and her little head clung to her chest.

"Little N, there's something I've been telling you, and I want to tell you again today."

"What words?"

"As long as we are together and can't see around, you don't forget to bring your zippo to light some small lights."

"Then what?"

"I won't leave you."

In the storm, we held each other tighter.

So Chen Rui and I hugged each other tightly, snuggled up to each other and encouraged each other all the way, and stumbled for almost three years.

After working for four years, the salary has been rising, and the commission has also increased with the increase of customers, but the figures in the bank card have not increased at all. Chen Rui and I are different. She saves a lot of money and often supports me.

Later, according to our agreement that day, we should have been able to go back to Hainan to open a shop together, but we did the opposite, going further and further, and finally being heavily in debt and unhappy all day.

Later, when it got dark, Chen Rui was never lit again, and she didn't turn to look at the water I handed her when she was thirsty. On many cold nights, she walked alone in the cold wind with her hands in her pockets instead of holding the hot ginger milk tea I gave her.

Chen Rui decided to leave me, but I didn't have the courage to stay and let her go, which was the most important thing I thought at that time.

? -Pick up-

On the National Day after I left Chen Rui, I dived back to Hainan in despair without saying goodbye to anyone.

For a long time, I still vaguely felt that she was still there.

Chen Rui doesn't know that I have returned to Hainan. We still have each other's WeChat, but I didn't send anything. We all have a tacit understanding to send some irrelevant messages.

Now, the Ness theme inn has opened, although not most of them were carried out according to the plan at that time, but it is similar. It's just that Chen Rui doesn't show up at the front desk to receive guests, and I occasionally help recruit the front desk there. The life we want to be together is very different.

I know Chen Rui is doing well now. After I returned to Hainan, she called me once and talked for a whole night. I often go back to Xiamen to find her.

But we all know that, just like that song that we all like very much, some people, once they miss it, stop.

Stay in Doraemon's room for a while every round. At that time, Chen Rui's favorite room was such a room that it would never get dark. You can see the vast starry sky in countless late nights. When I don't want to sleep in bed, I sleep in the hanging basket in the corner of the room. When I am bored, I read a book and stay for a day, forgetting the troubles at work.

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